What Goes On My MiNd!!

shallow or whatever u called it

2011-07-15T09:48:00.000-07:00

it is true when it called Life

when

people come and go

friends come and go

lovers come and go

family comes and go

everybody comes and go

fun is only 4 a while, lough is only 4 a while, also high smile happy mad angry.

but what stay is URSELF, ....hurt.... d... ache... of getting hurt left behind.

d connection, making a new one d effortm im tired,,,

is being lonely okay? it could be, it could be not

"you only dissapear" why bother

i wish i could just go away anywhere start new , i wanted too soo badlly

Lives even better

2011-06-01T20:12:00.000-07:00

Last sunday was the crazziest moment Ever
where all of us RPM instructor gathering together.
having a tution
to preparing our new lounching RPM 51..
and how do get connected to all d members and help them to lose more weight in safety , easy , hard , sweating classes

which this time i got to show off my skiLL
i know i've been improve better but ther's always little bit scary feeling inside
where i was going to perform with all these LeGEndaryys instructor an be able to watch them asweeLL

such tingling feeling inside is bursting out of my body< such amazing feeelings got,
and seeing their smile and scream at me how they follow my instruction while on a speed track "Break My faLL' Tiesto' such an awesome songs, which amaaazingly, wow,
and just by seeing those smile, i felt more confident then ever..
when they clap their hands , i felt alive then ever, is this what it feel to be recognize,

but then i got to thinking, i dont wanna lose the big head of me becoming bigger bigger an arogant, i need to stay calm , as i alweys a little bit emotionary insane and mad.......
i dont wanna be those arrogant, feeling in d top of d world without even looking down or anything around...

at the end of the day
our headt teacher 4 body jamp, msg me to have to perform SH'bam tuition
and she gave me 2 tracks to perform, shit man is crazyy, i never though that i would be doing that sh'bam thing, taking d Training was an ok mistake but just can't undo it, \
all i have to do now is give my best shot next saturday, i got nail it, if these mean i got to open up, and i have more open , more relax, couse Sh'Bam is free and release the inside of u that u never ever opening it, is quite easy but hardon the alligmnet and d feeling of the freeee...
here we go....
my god i should've doing this more often while im STO***..
hehehehehe
oopppsyyiiee

oh god thank u 4 making me this far, i stiLL love u more than ever

blueee...

2011-04-05T07:49:00.000-07:00

Where are we now,,...,,u keep hanging me on the top, .,.,.,, I keep telling u how I feel, so u know how I feel , and I know how u feel the same way, is it so Hard 4 to u leaning it on me, relying everything , I'm catching u if u fall, stop being soooo independent, tough, strong, an everything will be just fine, nooo, everything would not go just fine if u hold backz, know u could ,u know that u want it,,,I could've make u happy and u know it,"that's why u around so much, u there all d time" ,, but what is it that made u sooo afraid, damn it I love u so much, that made me wanna scream it to the world,.... Just about d time when I'm starting moving on...last night U come back an again made me feel d love, the moment, the look , the touch,,,,,,, aaaahh craaaaap! Craaaap I'm drowning again and again... I wanna say, I want tell, but I don't want to ... Afraid,, of ruining d moment Chicken lo Bud Chicken Hehehehehe!

Coffeeeee .... music & cigarette.....

2010-12-03T22:13:00.000-08:00

its been such a long time i havent
write anything here..
just got the moment........

lunch with friends on Plaza Indonesia , Kitchenette
first order black coffe double espresso
continuw with caramel machiato, freshingly burst to my brain and with enchanted music played..
just wanna write stuff
oh my... how i miss this moment of relaxing coffee and music and chit chat....
thank god is smoking area
coz now so many places that is strictly no smoking, inside the mall..
whats the point of making a coffee places without smoking area seriously... whats is their problem,, as i know...80% of people love coffe and cigarette..
and soo oooon.. bla bllaa bla......

work its a bit hectic now, crazzylyy, planning to do another program fitness
so manyy choices i had to pick, hummmm.......

oh and member love my class, thank god , is almost full on every classes , so its pretty awesome
have i ever feel bored, yaaah, if im always use the same song all the time......
that is why im always changed the song, on every week, soo learning every week, ....

Bonita & The Hus Band

2010-12-03T22:08:00.000-08:00

Found a very very talented Musician from Indonesia
That Is
Bonita & The HusbanD

Bonita: vokal
Petrus Briyanto Adi: gitar, vokal
Bharata Eli Gulo: perkusi, vokal
Jimmy Tobing: saksofon

such amazing voice that could reach My heart, magicly Enchanted, if u guys know "Flawrence & The Machine", tHis Bonita is the Indo version of them..

, the first time i watch this band was last thursday life from Kemang, as i sit, the voice coming from the stage combine with all this traditional and modern instrument , straight touchly my heart .....

one of the new single they had ari, live and accoustic
the story her exboyfriend..

finally Im hereee..

2010-08-23T10:58:00.000-07:00

yes this the time 4 me,
finally i got class of my own, even though its only for a cover, i can handle it now
, i had been better people that i had thx for:
- my ALLAH SWT of course, without ur believe i wouldnt believe im here.
- my dad
- my Mom
Friends and Mentor at Gold Gym
- Nicky
- Aji
- Wiwied
- Aldi Jacob
- Anggie
- and specially everyone from Moi gold gym indonesia
- and also MR. everton Torres, if u never been becoming our new head director manager, i wouldnt had been called, soo , thank u soo much

love u guys....
i promise i wouldnt let u down
next need to save money, to buy the special shoe, microphone, new clothes, new rpm pants
oh god.. so many,,,,
awesomeee

First of....My spiritual Journey eva

2010-06-11T19:11:00.000-07:00

what a beautiful sunday that was.big blue sky with white cloud surround it, mountain surround it, flowers around it, colours, so beautiful that i was cried to heart, that was nothing i could describe it more.walking through d grass, listening to slow music which make more perfect than eva.
the journey started when i woke up and see outside my window with a big blue sky,there's mountains, hills and hills before it , and everything's green on d ground.we were getting ready we took a shower and some breakfast. then we go.as we walk inside the garden , big big super big garden with lots and lots flowers , first stop we headed to this glass house, an the colours of the flowers shining bright through my eyes , we walk slowly and slowly to enjoy of what we see.as we head outside, we found the SPOT just under d BIG tree and flowers around it, we lay down, drink, and put another music on and look at the sky, where i could see cloud that moving round and round.
first i feel sick want throw up , my head is spinning like crazy, feeling paranoid that i could fly and falling to the sky......, and then Hippola was on, as the music comes to my ear, my head, then i feel it through whole my body.... peacefully...the sick has starting to disappear, paranoid becomes something beautiful.
the power of Positivenes is come... like i was pull back on d ground.. and when i open my eyed i see an angel dancing around the sky freely, flowers on my side is flowing through d sky and surround that angel,tears started falling from eyes. as i told my friends they were smiling and told they saw the same thing, it was amazing...
an hour later we decided to walk again, in this Big garden of maze, we walk with music on, we lough, we joke. but then we got lost inside it b ... thx god, we found our way out. so much fun ...
i boorowed some guitar pretending i could play it with the same song that i hear

as we walk we again we found another spot to sit,and we talk what comes on their mind to let it out everything and i did that too.. the crazy things everybody found their solutions straight a head, an we got to write it down, and keep it..

as we walk again i have found my way, through this life, what kind of person i could become,
what i found is there r still some beautifullness in this world, and to stay on my positiveness, and if i want to be happy, i should be more Honest to myself, be what we are but caring for others and i want to make PEOPLE around me happy,honest, tru about them self, i wanna be a person that somebody could lean on, i could help people around me , i wanna be that person, i am gonna be that person.

we done our spiritual journey in this big flower garden
next year it will be on the beach..
looking forward to it. thank to god, that i still live until now and see d big picture to live in this world

loving this sigur ros

2010-06-09T05:57:00.001-07:00

u guys r soooo freaakin roooocckk

kk

loving this sigur ros

2010-06-09T05:57:00.000-07:00

u guys r soooo freaakin roooocckk

kk

quaterly

2010-06-09T05:43:00.000-07:00

dammit! i miss it, shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!

oh crap, i gotta wait 4 another, 5 months now, craaaaaap!

tv shows is growing up

2010-06-07T21:43:00.000-07:00

as we all know
such entertainment like tv show and all, some is like a life that is imposible to have, and overall such a bullshit crap, drama drama and drama even i cant stand it sometimes.
but.
some are changing their consept of their tv show, it more like giving u advice, about everything, how to deal with ur family, how to deal friendshipness, caring about people, love at first sight, life and live, a dream, being used, a jerk, a bitch, an asshole, teacher, and most the truth of ours, feeling, hatred, love, fun, what we r, and what u r. etc etc.

such inspiration r coming to me,
like ugly betty, which talk about achieving ur dream, and also is not easy how to survive it and living in people expectation, and all.
glee
is more like finding the truth about urself, and how to survive in it, in school, in life, they got it all.
Brother & sister , The parenthood
dealing with family is never been easy, with ur kids , ur own parents, brother and sister, but most important family is no.1
Greek
life in campus , is not easy as is seen, is harder, how do u stay in life after school over, friends come and go, choosing between love and friendship

more detail not now, maybe later byee

Dont u bring me down today

2010-06-07T04:51:00.000-07:00

1:
freakin workgroup is pailling up to the cealling , an is all on me, others r too busy to do it, other doing this, and other doing that, freakin mad, and when i just started doing it today by my self, and i was on fire really on fire
then one of them, texted me "hi bud, hows our homework?" when i sain do u want to meet up and doing it together, thousand of reason r just there" F*** that, stop giving me this bullshit all care and all that but then u dont give any shit about it.l F*** u all , u just ruin it it got me angry, freakin maaaad!, i can do this by myself, and hopefully i m gonna finish it, im gonna put it all nighter... hopefully!

2:
my own family is all F*** up too today, first my sista, okay she just got home from work and all i ask is borrowing her mobile phone just for 1 minute, and she's like "whaat, i just bought some credit, noo expensive, no way"... fineeeee
then i text my mom, just wondering where is she and all,
and she answered she is in the hospital, so i text back, where? what happen i'll go there right now? then she just said
im okay, im just old and rotten,..bla bla bla.
mOM i dont need that today, im stressed enough already, stop being soo freakin spoiled and the neeed of the attention, i just cant give that today, dont u know u freakin good 4 nothing son, is stressfull enough about anything agghhhhhh

random.....

2010-06-03T00:13:00.001-07:00

im so confuse my self with this one!

friends friends friends!
im here all the time
im tired when u said to me "u r so snob bud?"
ur so busy and all, bla bla bla.

first
i am busy and all, so much on my plate right now,
since dad is gone, im trying to keep my family together
coz sometimes they just lose it sometimes, specially my mom
i had to be with her all the time, well not really...but at least im there

second
i found out ur hooking up with my friend H, can't believe u did that, he got a wife and kids what the hell r u doing , seriously! u r insane,
i know u breaking up with A coz A got together with J an it hurt u badly and u need somebody else to be with u all the time , im sorry that i cant be with u all the time then u throw me away like garbage, but im glad, being with u is like a prisoner coz A & J also my friends i cant hang out with them and with others or i had a little time 4 my family......poor H " it's ur new victim but.... well.. H is also very Fake person so u deserve together.

also ur anger to A & J dont take it out only at J or giving the face or mouth, seriously how H feels! u already have somebody else no need that revenge already! u all are important to me,but i u r gonna do something to J, im gonna protect J from u all i can if u are , not because i like J coz J is my friend and im gonna protect all my friends, u freak!

three
yes im teaching class now, if u dont like seeing me up there go F*** urself , go talk with people said whatever u like, coz i know its not true an there r still friends who believe me that i can do this.. an... yeap im good!

On my way UP!!

2010-04-20T04:16:00.000-07:00

things are really good this months!
Finally!!!
i had finished my last UNI project an i Pass, all i need to do is finish this semester an IM DONE for UNi for good!!
whooofff@@
then i had passed my training as an Instructor RPM class for the gym, after 7 years doing it after being fat, then thin, fat again, then thin again, over over and over, im gonna earn money from doing what i love and soo passion about it, work Hard really payed off, ! hehe

then im being a shadow for at least 3 weeks, then team coach for 2 weeks then i gonna have my own class pretty soon! hehehe!
cant wait, although i still hav to memorize all the songs and the choreography for at least 20 songs, i only had memorize 5 of it, so 15 more songs to go! yippiee!

an the people who im training with u r amaziing, for the past 2 days we worked really hard together as a team, really miss u people hope we can meet again soon! really2 miss u,

i have to thank u all the people
who supported me all this, i just cant thank u enough, so much people who being in this cause. love u and thank u so much for all ur greatness!

some people some friends

2010-03-29T10:47:00.000-07:00

for some reasons
i've been supporting people around me so much, i encourage them, i motivate them, and i push them to the limit, some success. and once their reach their target an change their life to this whole new world, i was happy, and proud to them to the max....

but as the time goes past little by little.. they forgot who was i.
i was just a friendor someone who past by, and gave them support, nothing more.

then it was a snap!! for me, they change , why havent i, where am i going..
is it because the unstable mind of me, or is it..
i dont know
i dont know

u are

2010-03-12T17:11:00.000-08:00

so weak! on soo many ways!

2010-03-10T22:28:00.000-08:00

phase 1:
after the day u left
class never been the same, ur the only one who would shouted back whenever i shouted.
i didnt tell my feeling to you on ur last day there.
i mean whats the point! u gonna go anyway for how long i dont know!
maybe i should've tell u
then we could spend time alone .
but then...........
i dont know its been 3 days only and i miss u so bad, badly enough that i got no energy on everthing on anything.
even though i have few more days to go on my last big presentation on UNI!
seems didnt care!
but i do care, i really do, but u are moreee!

phase 2:
u make me happy then u hurt me then u make my whole word beutiful again!
oh im such a weak guy, i just cant say no to you!
last night u came to me again, that ur feeling down need someone to talk.. who else u can talk to, other than me! of course i say yes i'l accompany u ,
then we chat have a beer, another beer and another beer and another! till u feel a lot better... and better.
then for the first time u grab my head.......... then kiss it! which u never done it before ever.

i want to grab ur hand, but i didnt dare to do it. im scared to go there again, coz u hurt and i dont want go complicated again! im done with that!
so i just sit there trying not looking at u, and everything in u!
shut up and smile!
if u didnt have someone else i would to give it back to you!
but u seems so attached to that person, that i dont want to hurt.

and if we did ended up together again,
life will be so hard to me and u! so im chicken out....
oh well i dont know what would happen tomorow, we'l have to see
agaiiinn!! hehehehe

letter 2

2010-03-09T17:15:00.000-08:00

i miss u dad!
life is so up an down since u away
im lost,
dealing with death, is hard than it looks!

Chris Brown is back! with new awesome hit single

2010-02-22T21:25:00.000-08:00

Chris Brown is back

YES people he’s back! I cant believe he is dare to show his face back again to the world after what he done to Rihanna our umbrella girl ………………………………………………………………… …………………… ……………… ………………………………………………………………… …… ……….

But if u look at the big picture over here, People deserve to have a second chance or maybe third and that’s the maximum I give for me.

Take a look at ourselves at the moment we also make mistake sometime, and not many people or friends forgive easily , of course we feel hurt, guilty, alone, and become crazy sometimes. And for that we just have to live with it. Well honey is your fault, but if we really truly madly deeply ( ehehehehe ) want to change lets prove it and not only by words but by doing it.

All I want to say is , lets make changes to ourself and others, let people think whatever they want as long as we not giving up and fall down below!

Here it is Chris Brown

With new hit single "Crawl" from the album Graffiti

im coming!

2010-02-19T18:40:00.000-08:00

yes ur boyfriend is away!
im coming over now!
hopefully im gonna hav it today!
hehehehehe!!

whaaat??

2010-02-14T17:21:00.000-08:00

since u were back u look all sad!
u skinnier, ur gloomy,and confuse!
i wanna ask.... why?.........
but he was there! right next to you, like everything just look fine!

then rumours spread that u break up with him, so i open ur facebook to see and read
ur status, to make sure its true!......and it is.im sad, coz i feel like i know u and him being together like since 4ever.. wherever he is u were always there... and suport him everything!.. sooo , i msg u on fb, so u'l be okay! "which i regret!!"

the next day i saw u, still with the gloomy face!!.., i was embarassed so badly then i'l try to avoid u coz he was there!,i know that u were trying to talk to me but i was too scared and trying make myself busy with others.

after all that u ask to go dinner together with others and a few second later ur boyfriend ask too , can't say no so i gotta go!
and damn!! i sit right next to you ...everyone keep loughing , talking and loughing.....but u.. u just sitting there quietly and not mendling with others..so i said "hello"...then u smiled a bit but it feels like the room light become bright as the SUn! omg ini NAMANYA GUE lebai, but this is for real.... we talked a bit.

After the meal.......
u msg me on mobile so no one coulnd't know!it say that u need a friend then
u ask me to stay over and,.......... i said okay i'l love too ,even though we were never friends before,

After ur boyfriends left u cal me ...
just 3 meters from ur house suddenly im trembling, shaking.
whaaaa...whaat the hell . why am i so nervous, i dont know.
"keep telling myself that im here just to listen"
as u open door, u told me that u were tired so lets go to bed straight'
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"u live byserlf??" "yeahh. totally" u said.

uh...ummm.....okay.
as we in bed in your bed , i ask u to tell me everything ....then u cried...................................
as i sweep your back gently, i wanna hug u so badly, but i was too scared, u were there half naked an i didnt do anything... OMG SOOO stupiid bud, sooooo stupiiid!!!!!!!!!!!!
scared being rejected, scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared!
after 3 hours.. couldnt sleep

u were there rolling so u could look at me, like 4ever i couldn't sleep at all, coz my hearts pumping like machine on roll! and all i did just hug and kiss! what can i do... im not ready! still not!

thank god i was free that day and ur boyfriend was away too, so we hang out meeting up ur friends ..which is awesome BTw!
i could see the light on ur face star shining again, finally u eat, finally u lough, then there goes ur bitchy itchy attitude come out.
the day goes so well and good!
even though u were sleeping through whole movie, im glad to see it!

after we gone to bed, i let u sleep again coz i know ur tired, but i couldnt..cozz this will be the last night we gona spend together since he 's coming back later on, so im just there right next to u hugging u watching u sleep . so beautiful.

aaghh! till today i cant stop thinking about it, i wanna c u so bad!
gilaaaaa
padahal gw sidang 3 hari lagi, semuanya gak masuuuuukkk!
all i can see is ur face , oh god, what the hell is this, i hate it i hate it! FU** THIS!!
NEED TO CONCENTRATE!!!

Amazing, video, loving it!

2010-02-08T18:43:00.000-08:00

im such a fool BUT Im happy. soo FU** it lah!!

2010-02-08T18:38:00.001-08:00

yes im in relation ship right now

even though die uda engage with somebody else,
selama dia butuh gw, im gonna be there 4 sure!

love love... aaghhhh F*CK this!

friends with a couple

2009-12-12T00:24:00.000-08:00

always being left out
the other is always important.
oh im sick of this, im backing off

YAY!! Clazziquaaii has a new album

2009-09-15T10:24:00.000-07:00

as i write about them earlier...
the Amazing band from clazziquai, has a new album "MucHo MUSICA"
and these are their new Single " TeLL YOURSELF !!!!"
such a cool songs; lift up ur Day.
an i found the video which live performance! they dont do this often.

miracle does happen

2009-08-25T18:29:00.000-07:00

finally after 5 months driving, without car licence
finally this morning , one of the helper at home, found,
oh ALLAH, thank u so much
thank u , thank u , thank u!!!

my gooodnesss!! now i dont have to be afraid of going home, after midnight!!
just in case there's a check or anythiing!! hehehehehahahahaha
hahahahahahaha!!
oh GOD im so freeakinly happpyyyy!!!

1 Night Melbourne

2009-08-24T17:38:00.000-07:00

One day, I went to Melbourne with my whole family and we lived at Spencer street in this really big apartment, after we arrive in the apartment , the only thing in my mind was going out alone and enjoy the beautiful city of Melbourne after I told my family of course.

I found my self at Collin Street beside those big Church where I used to have coffee with Badra and Sasha, and then I found my self at Bourke st looking at this parade, soo amazing, there’s Chinese dragon dancing with fireworks and all that, then I got called from My sis ask me to go back to have some dinner, my mom were cooking and preparing all that.

We sit at the table , and enjoying this festival parade of food, then my dad ” ta, after this can we go to casino and play a bit, yah?” first thing in my head, oh shit cmon I’m sooo lazy to do it, “sorry dad I cant tonight, promise we go tomorrow! Okay!!” after a while …

I Went to this Big club with Indri sister, somehow I don’t know why?? and freakily it looks like blowfish, full of the riches people and dressed up good, thank god I look super awesome, after a while I met this guy, he was Asian …….

then he Introduce himself,” Hi how are ya” he was wearing this black Shirts with a black shiny jacket, black pants and shiny Black shoes, he was holding this Glass of Red wine , and he also didn’t told me his name , “ ur not drinking” I just node then “ I do, I just couldn’t afford one, thanks for the offer though” , “ no no, wait” then he called one of the waiter to ask the waiter to get us something, then we move to a bar side and having a bottle of wine just 4 the both of us.

we were chatting bla bla bla until I was a drunk , “ shit. This stuff is heavy, thank god I could reach home fast”.. he just smiled “ good on ya.. "...im sooo enjoying this moment...

then my friend came “Budi. Where the hell.. have u been, I was looking 4 u like crazy..lets go home its 4am already”, ,”What!! R u serius, ok2 lets go, wait 4 me at the lobby yah!” as I was saying goodbye to this guy.. he then grab my hand..and.

“ u can’t just leave like that, wait!” then he called a waiter ask for a bill , wait do i have to pay it too, shiit…… …, I though he was going to pay it for me, he was the one who offered it, oh well another jack ass I dont care with this shiit.. when I check my wallet there was $ 150 in it, so I’ll take it out put it on the table, then give it to him” sorry I only have this much…he was looking at me angrily, take my wallet and just put my money back on it..

After the bill come , he looked shocked .. when I was taking a peek on it it was $4400 aus, What the f*ck, we only had 1 bottle of wine and 2 beer, of course ,…. then he started complain with the manager ,…. ”what’s up bud !” it was Indri, after I told the story to her, she straight away company him and help coz she looks like she own the place….after she took it the bill and take a look on it, she moved to this sofa under the stairway…then I saw this photographer take a picture over here and there, then he moved down from the stair and look at Indri, as she standing up with the Bill on her hand ….somethings different about her, she taller and skinnier, Wait THAT Is pudji ……………

oh… My ..God.. what the Fu*k happened……then everything’s started to go around and round,,,,,and become blank ….when im trying to open my eyes again,.. I found my self on my bed woking up………THANK god it was a dream…..waiittt… SH***T it was a dreaaaaaam…………. Daamn!!

Good Reason for Not Drinking,,is it???

2009-08-13T18:16:00.000-07:00

loving InDONESIA PART 1

2009-08-08T12:21:00.000-07:00

loving Indonesia part 2

2009-08-07T04:28:00.000-07:00

Dolce Vita (enjoy life with food)

2009-08-05T10:02:00.000-07:00

love this show,
the music, the atmosphere, the people.. ohh my god! so awesomee!!
try watching this in the middle of the night, starvvviinggg!!

bitchiness!!

2009-07-17T10:13:00.000-07:00

It Hurts like Hell!
when u know ur friend does not think the same as u, as ur best friend!
feel betrayed, like falling down to darkness, to emptyness, and far beyond under, u FU**ing treat us like GARbage, once we fulfill ur satisfyness.
now i know the feeling

does it ever accoured to you! that u r friends are care for u!
like really care!
aghh GOd, im sooo Fu*king angryy,
but, we are human being, we had our own rights, do whatever we want, and treat people like we wanted tooo!
well that is the bitchiness of a friendship!
they always leaave! only few who stayed

LOVE DOES TAKES OVER

2009-07-14T18:45:00.001-07:00

SUch a greaaaaaat combination!
my god this song is so AMAAAZIIING!
one is my favorite DJ of all time and one is my favorite singer none other than Kelly rowland
enjoy the song!!

money does talk!! daammiit!! "the Desperate of me"

2009-07-04T11:49:00.000-07:00

today is the day im finish, my end of term exam!
lets see what did i do today:
after exam,
-meet my friend and have a drink,
-then go to friends birthdaayy
my goD" the food was soo amazing" well that because i havent eaten anything good 4 the last 3 weeks! ...wait but i did eat much, but its different when u eat after u done something, or maybe work!!
- then we watched BLOOD: THE LAST VAMPIRE thing ( it was crap btw)
- muchies a lot, i juts buy everything, food, drink, ciggie
- then im brooke!

the plan today was not quietly what i planned to:
it should be:
- after exam, drink a bit so i could feel a bit reaalaaxx!
- then to friends birthday (meeting old friends)
- go to the gym (meet with the gym friends and work out together)
- then meet with mitra ( karaoke , or maybe go cluubbing"wanna dance so bad, is been long")

but then as i see my wallet, all i got is RP10.000, not even a 1 US dolar, hello, i havent payed the parking, damn im hungry, thank god i still have cigarette in me!

see if i have money, i could go watch another movie with my friends, or go karaoke all night loong or maybe" having wine on the beach" like segara in ancol!

arrghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
this why i need to work! wanna graduate so baad!!! so i could go to work or takin part time job somewhere,
then i could socialite moree!! hae hae hae hae!!!!
also i wanna go to melb
not just holiday but also meeting my friends whom i love so muuuch!!
and just last month "my high school friends, made renunion" F**K!!! wanted to go soo baaaadd!!!
oh well! whateveer, at leats i could relaz tonight, even though im a bit lonely!!

yes ! im sooo spoiled right now, but doesnt mean i didnt try enough!!
da'

The OTHER END of the LINE

2009-06-15T21:39:00.000-07:00

Have u ever accrosed the ocean, across the city, across the country far faraway!just meeting someone that u havent exactly met, and u think that someone is ur soulmate! do something crazy, Follow ur instinct, just beyond everything!!

this what movie trully about.

Priya( Shriya Saran ) as an operator credit card girl from an american banking which pretends to be American as her job to the American, but actually she worked from India. as she travel all the way to san fransico, to meet Granger (Jesse MetCalife )===> soo freakin hot} one of her customer that she got attached to through her work and spend so much on his credit card, however she hides her true identity coz she scared it'l be akward, which by the way that is where all the sparks happen between the two.

such a romantic comedy that will lough your guts out specially, this indian actor are totally amazing and funny. also (Jesse MetCalife) which by the way Hot hot hot and charming, the guy from Desperate housewife is finally being the Main character on a movie and he is good!!!

So i would say this is a really good movie, and why this movie is not famous as other movie, i mean there's no trailer on the news or ever been out there, and i found it on some dvd store near my campus.

this movie should be out there! trully!!

awesome!!

im okay, again & i do have a lot of faces

2009-06-15T10:57:00.000-07:00

i got the call from Indika today
that i didnt get the job , coz i failed the test! again!
the funny thing is...
i am okay, i didnt get depressed and all that like i was last year.

coz maybe is the right thing! first i couldnt do well on the job just yet,
and i'm still not done yet with uni, also if im in the job while im still in uNi, probably i will never gonna finish it, coz i dont think im a person who could 2 job at the same time.
i can only concentrate on one thing,
and right now i need to finish my uni and graduated, i know im saying this all the time, but that because i need it!
to remind my self, what would happen after i finish it, what will i do after it.

part time job not do well on me, while im studying!! so yeah!!

btw on last weekend! while im on that arisan thingy!
i was on mushroom, and i was totally myself, ( last time when i was on it, i was watchin Star trek the movie and it was AWESOOMEEE , i dont need 3d glasses, the effect just came out from that big screen, is like i was in it! hehehe! )

back to last weekend, it was fun when i being myself, i dont feel embarassed, got no shame ) i just mocking everyone, being fairy and all that, hopefully my friend who doesnt know me, and know it now, what i am truly are.........they didnt become hating me, well if they do!! is their lost, not mine!
im just happy of what i am, saying what i want, and be cool minded!
hehehe!
so yeah i admit that im a person who have a lot of faces, but trully im just being nice!! to people that i hate!
but to people that i loved like my best buddies i only have 4 faces
- being truthfull &
- being honest
- being mad
- being straight ( i mean as a forward person )

afternoon talky talky!

2009-06-13T23:51:00.000-07:00

oh god! im having such a blast night!
went to this called PASTIS, located in Kuningan!
which totally cool and awesome place to hang out, another one of those places for upper class people, where people having those big botle of wine, and classy food,
and all i had was cofeee and a bir that cost 50thousand rupiah , like maybe 5 to 8 dolars us$, well probably cheap to some people but not me!

most important is, i got to see all my friends were all gone from junior high, and they all just showed up there, where we all got connected again, and chat.
then after that bla bla bla bla!
whatever! i just got home from bogor after that unpridectable reunion, so tired,
i think im gonna relax today and playing ps2 (need to buy ps3, freakin expensive)!
have a good day people!

my letter for u...

2009-06-09T07:48:00.000-07:00

im in pain!!

the day when my dad died, i dont feel anything, just empty , nothing that i wanna do, nothing could make happy, just a fake smile that i gotto give when people were all saying their condelences.

"oh BUDI , IM Ssorry BOUT YOUR DAD, evrythings will be alright"
" your dad is happy now, he is in a better place"
"something good would come from it"

FOR GOD sake!
" AAARGGGGHHH JUST FUCKING SHUT UUP "
AND LEAVE ME ALONE "

BUT now im feeling the pain much more
" everytime i got home from uni , he asked to brough him food"
" he asked me to give him a massage "
" he asked to go to pharmany to by a Balm, for his back "
" i saw him sitting on the table, and asked me to make him tea"
" he asked me to Go to the beach with him "
" he asked me what u wanna eat today "

" he asked to by by him shampoo, so i give it whats mine "
" He asked me to go shopping at the mall "
" he called me late at night, from his room, just knowing where i am"
" HE CAlled me late at nigth, asking for food"
" he asked me to go to the office to do some errands"
" he asked me to pick him up at hospital every tuesday and thusrday"

" he sked me to pick him up from the office, so we could eat dinner together"
" he always defended me, when mom angry"

dad i miss u so bad, i went home 4 years ago to take care of youjust for u! why d hell did u go so fast.

" u havent see me getting married"
" u havent got to see ur grandchild from me"
" u havent see me graduated"
" u havent see me work by my self, without ur help"
" i haven take u to HONGKONG,where we playing gambling together like in malay"
" u havent see me as a successful man, where u give freedom to choose my own way"

now since u left, everyday mom and sis always blaming me for everythingand no one defended me like u used to be,.

where we always sneak out during lunch, talk and eat at much as we could at Padang raya"

"im sorry i couldnt find u a better doctor
"a better hospital "
"a better treatment".

right now im still looking my way to be better, to be more successfulllike u always wanted, i know is hard but i will never give up easyly.

even that im alone right now, i dont give shit about all that, no shit at all!

my promise to you is the only thing that kept me going right now!!rest in peace dad!!love u all my life, and im sorry if i alway letting u down"

LIfe................

2009-06-07T02:47:00.000-07:00

how we people live in this world where full of pain and missery and thats hOw we people grow up! """ THAT'S WHAT moRRISSEY GOT TO SAY!!

WE FACE it and just go with it!never feel ashamed of what ur doing , never be down!well is ok to feel down for a while ,but dont take it too far or being misserable too long like suiced or hurt ur self ,, there are so many things in this world that is too valuable and beautiful that we will experience!!

get up and change how you live, do something about it, i know i will! and how i live til now!!find ur way if u havent got it, do something, u never been do!!!!!
be happy and enjoy ur life! and relaaaaaaaaaaaxxx!!!

such amazing song and inspiring so much!!

Lyrics to That's How People Grow Up :
I was wasting my time
Trying to fall in love
Disappointment came to me and Booted me and bruised and hurt me

That's how people grow up
That's how people grow up
I was wasting my time Looking for loveSomeone must look at me
And see their sunlit dream

I was wasting my time
Praying for love For a love that never comes from Someone who does not exist
and

That's how people grow up
That's how people grow up

Let me live before I dieNot me, not I!

I was wasting my life Always thinking about myself
Someone on the deathbed said "There are other sorrows too"
I was driving my car I crashed and broke my spine

So yes, there are things worse in life
than Never being someone's sweetie
That's how people grow up
That's how people grow up

As for me I'm ok......................For now anyway

The FunnIest TV show EVEERRRR!!! "wipeout"

2009-05-25T06:04:00.000-07:00

from the one who make "Fear factor" comes a new gaming tv show called "WIPEOUT",
is a competion where people could win for a $25 grand or $50 grand after completing task that they have.
even though is not much like fear factor, where there's snake, bug or anything else that looks scary and disqusting.
but instead the contestant will be facing like jumping the Big balll, running through on the water WHICH is not going to be easy.
but seriously this is the funniest TV show i ever watched in My life, i loughed so hard til my family thinks im crazy or on crack, well i am crazy some time!hehehe!

let me show you what happen to these guy!

lazyy!!!

2009-05-13T10:32:00.000-07:00

my god!!!
so much that i wanna write, just lazyy!!
ah lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy!!!

went to the gym a lot 4 d last couple of weeks, training to be instructor but i can't be one just yet, still got so much to lose!
got new friends from the gym, they'r nice but sometimes they r such a bitch, so is like love and hate relationship!!
tada' tidum, ..... tidum tidum tada!!!

Funny how things are!!

2009-04-28T19:20:00.000-07:00

just after i wash my car in a saloon!
i was listening to indika fm which totally my second favorite radio in Jakarta...., they were talking about this Event that they organize in x2 on 1st of may !!

"CLUBHOPPERS EXCLUSIVE SET Riri Mestica"

and how we could win the ticket by answering 1 question. and the question were " what time does it start?" it was easy like hell, so i answered it because it was so easy and without thinking about winning it! is like, yeahhh whatever!
few mnt later as i reached home and eating, i got called by them and and win that ticket! yay!!

the funny thing is!
DEVI JOHANNES (one of the funniest announcer at Indika in "Hello Sunshine" )

was talking about car wash and how we should taking our car to the saloon,
so later on if we go the event our car look shining and awesome!.. well i just did, and also on 1st of may, is my last day having exam, so yeahh! Thank you Indika!
but!!!
im not looking forward to it that! much, coz i really dont know this RIri Mestica is, is he playing progresif, trance, or house music..

we'l see!!!

Disappointing but very entertaining "DRAGON BALL REVOLUTION"

2009-04-23T00:12:00.000-07:00

finally last night i saw

Dragon Ball revolution ,

i was so exited about this movie, really exited! coz..i such a big fan of the tv cartoon of all time since i was kid!

my friends said it was bad, "the movie sucks, the guy is not asian" ... then! so what, i dont give a shit who played in the movie and how bad it is, i just wanna watch it , even so is bad..... it still good 4 the mockery.

then yeap it was crap, i knew how when the Goku became that King Kong thing, had a tail, but this one does not! to became human again somebody hav to cut his tail! in this movie is NOT.

the Mockery start from middle of the movie till the end! me and my friend lough so hard, the cast r sucks (except Chow yun fat) , The act Bad, and they were all Ugly.

i though The one who played Bulma was Holly valance, but then is Not HER!! aarrgghh! so disapointing!

the most dissapointing is ..that!!
Stephen Chow was the director of this movie! cmooon, he was all big timer on making for Funniest movie like " Kungfu Hustle, and Shaolin soccer" but this one, a bit trying to hard!!!!!!!

arg oh well is a good feeling loh!!

MANY QUESTION??

2009-04-22T01:00:00.000-07:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage = COCONUT BREAD
2. last phone call = Denny
3. last text message = Denny
4. last song you listened to = Clazziquai "salesman"
5. last time you cried = a month ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = no
7. been cheated on = Yes
8. kissed someone & regretted it = no
9. lost someone special = yes
10. been depressed = Yes
11. been drunk and threw up = no matter ho much i drunk never threw up

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Coklat
13. Red
14. Blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. made a new friend = .yes, a lot of Bitchie people!!
16. fallen out of love = yaa
17. laughed until you cried = yes
18. met someone who changed you = yes, just last week
19. found out who your true friends were = Still the same as 6 years ago
20. found out someone was talking about you = A lot, and i still friends with Them! amazing right!!
21. kissed anyone on your friend's list = Been kissed

THINGS THAT DESCRIBE ME:

22. how many people on your friends list do you know in real life = Lots
23. how many kids do you want to have = 2 boys 2 girls
24. do you have any pets? = i was, then my mom threw it away! coz my cat such a bitch!
25. do you want to change your name = NO, im Happy with it!
26. what did you do for your last birthday = i dont wanna remember it! it was shiit!!
27. what time did you wake up today = 7.am
28. what were you doing at midnight last night = .have a drink at Loewy with Richi and Denny

29. name something you CANNOT wait for = Finish UNI and work at Magazine or Radio
30. last time you saw your mother = .yesterday morning
31. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = My Body and Brain
32. what are you listening to right now = ClazziQuai. and disco Heaven

33. have you ever talked to a person named Tom = What is it with TOM, is he that Famous!

34. what's getting on your nerves right now = Exam
35. most visited webpage = facebook, blogger, you tube, Mtv.
36. what's your real name = Budi Syahputra
37. nicknames = .Budi, uta, Budut, buday, buddy.
38. relationship status = Single and complicated
39. zodiac sign = Leo
40. male or female? = I dont KNOw???
41. elementary? = AL- azhar kelapa gading
42. middle school = Al-azhar kelapa gading
43. high school/college = Box hill High School / Bina Nusantara
44. hair color = Black
45. long or short = Short

46. height = 176 or 177
47. do you have a crush on someone? = Not at the Moment
48: what do you like about yourself? = just be myself
49. piercings = neveer! dont wanna hurt myself
50. tattoos = havent! pretty soon hopefully
51. righty or lefty = Righty

FIRSTS :
52. first injury = when i was 4, jumping on a glass table and got stiched on my eyebrow
53. first piercing = no
54. first best friend = cant remember
55. first sport you joined = Cycling
56. first vacation = .Bali when i was a kid, Not much FUN
58. first pair of trainers = .Black long red strips on the side

RIGHT NOW:
59. eating = .air
60. drinking = carlsberg with lemon
61. I'm about to = Sleep
62. listening to = The Simpsons
63. waiting on = get sleepy

YOUR FUTURE :
64. want kids?= .ToTally
65. get married? = .i wnant to
66. career? = Magazine or Radio
67. lips or eyes = better EYE
68. hugs or kisses = hugs much more romantic
69. shorter or taller = taller
70. older or younger = .younger
71. romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneous is much more Fun
72. nice stomach or nice arms = Stomach lah yaaa!! so i could show it off!! like Those People
73. sensitive or loud = Loud
74. hook-up or relationship = Hook - up is much more FUn
75. trouble-maker or hesitant = Kinda Both, depend on situation

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. kissed a stranger = no but i want to
77. drank hard liquor = Yes, but i prefer mix
78. lost glasses/contacts = yah when im on my way home from Ancol and couldnt see a thing
79. had sex on first date = NO, still a virgin but it'l be good , so we know iF they r THAT GOOD!!
80. broken someone's heart = i dont know
81. had your own heart broken = every year
82. been arrested = does teacher room count?
83. turned someone down = yes
84. cried when someone died = NO, weird HUh!!
85. fallen for a friend? = all d time, but just 4 a while!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. yourself = Sometimes
87. miracles = .Only when It Happen, but when is Not, gotta work hard to earn it!!
88. love at first sight? = All d Time
89. heaven = Yes
90. Santa Claus = For the sake of children , Yes i am
91. kiss on the first date = .Maybe
92. angels = Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time = Never have, but i will
95. did you sing today? = .i Kinda DID
96. ever cheated on somebody? = other than Boyfriend/girlfriend thing, yes i did
97. if you could go back in time, how far would you go?= 7 years ago, first Day In melbourne
98. if you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = the day i went to malaysia, prefer aussie
99. are you afraid of falling in love? = I do, hurt so maany Times
100. posting this as 100 truths? = what eeveeerr!!

Finaally Its finissh!! arrgghh!!

Stupidity!!!

2009-04-16T08:53:00.000-07:00

last friday night! i went to a bar called Dehoii! located in Pondok Indah!
is a really cool club, like baliness modern Bar!

i went there coz im just sick of staying home on friday night!! and thinking what i've been through during d week! family shit and all!! it was the day after The Vote thing day over. since some of my friends pretty grounded and one stuck in the Hospital coz the fever thingy, i want to vist but he didnt allow me to! wonder what coz???? so i go alone by myself.

had a drink called Brainwash , is pretty strong , but i keep drinking and drinking it , also a beer in between. they got a pretty cool and funny kinda rock on roll Band, which totally awesome as far i remembered, then i got sick wanna get out the place so fast and so i did! after saying goodbye to my friend and pay whatever how much i payed!!

i drove home on my own with my head SPInning like crazzy and Halucinate a lot, there's a thought that i should've stop and sleep for a while, but i just keep think of reaching home fast so i could lay down on my bed and worry nothing else
.......................................................................................................................................................................................................
after a while
BRACK BRUCK BRECK!!!! i shockingly woke up and found my car at the end of left side of the freeway touching bricks... i control my car again and stop!!! shaking, scared, and SOBER!!
Thank God there's no other Car on the freeway,
Thank God there's a brick at the side of the freeway,
Thank God it only sractch my tire, Body was Perfectly fine, and
Thank God i didnt fall down and still Alive!! shit man it was 20 meters uphigh!! maybe more!!!.

as i reached home my head start get dizzy again!! why?? didnt i just got sober? but again??.
oh well but it make think that.
next time i gotta go home with someone like i used to, cant go home by myself, and sleep for a while if i need to!
that is some crazzy stuff i've ever been exp!!!
And thank god i've made it too my bed!! so nice!

so.. will i stop drinking!! Hell NOO?? hahahahahaha!!!

Amazing Musician From Korea

2009-04-05T07:15:00.000-07:00

such an AMAAzing artist

Clazziquai Project, which producer and mixer Kim Sung-hoon (middle), also known as DJ Clazzi and vocalists Alex Chu (right) and Choi Ho-ran(Left).

This guys are Korean ...i couldnt believe it, coz when i heard their song today i though they was Japanese, and their song are awesome, as many korean singer and band most of their songs are HIP-HOP, LOve songs, and POP. Until these guys showed up which took the chance brings up their Unique and the difference with others of korean Musician with CHILL out, soulfull, and Electrica music are join together, they totally HIT The TOP.

They called it Clazziquai coz their music are classic, jazzy, and Grovy.
I had their songs since 3 months ago in my computer! and i just happened open their album this morning ... god such a foool, coz it was name Clazziquai,,,, so i though it some classic collection or something, but anywayyy.. i looveee this band.

In America they have TOrtured soul, We have MAliQ and D'Essentials,
now Korea have Clazziquai, and i still look forward to the others.

i embed 3 video of their music from You TUbe of course,
which the 3 of them , have a different kind of music, JAZZ, Soulfull, CHill, and DAnce.

Clazziquai Project Come to Me

Clazziquai dance, english version

Clazziquai - Fill this Night

The other version of Kudeta

2009-03-29T23:49:00.000-07:00

Segarra

Its Located in Marina Bay Ancol at very end east side, this place is suchHeaven, lounge that located beside the Sea, feel the wind passed u by, looking at sundown, and stars. They Serve amazing food but expensive, company by a lot of Great Wine choices ( alcohol and non alcohol ).

The Slow beat kind of music just make u wanna chill and dont forget The View is FAa.aabulous!!! also they have the best service ever, the waitress all or nice and helpfull.

Just a bit of minus there, everytime i order hot drinks and hot food it get cold fast if u let it! well there's nothing u can do about that coz is on the beach of course its always windy and all!!

Introducing another Soulful Music

2009-03-29T21:55:00.000-07:00

“Tortured Soul”

From left
Ethan White: keys, backing vocals
John-Christian Urich: drums, lead vocals. JKriv: bass, backing vocals

Another Soulful music has come into our world, with the instruments they use such as drum , organ and bass which will Move and relaxing ur mind, body and soul, Is like another concept of house music, but better, easier, slower, and combine with soul music!! Is Amazing!!
This is real music
with their best single "Fall in Love"

Blackberry….HMMM!!! ….Not so classy anymore

2009-03-28T20:09:00.000-07:00

Blackberry blackberry, I hate this Phone soo much!
Why? Coz everybody has it!! Even Teenagers has it!! Is not because im jealous coz I didn’t had one, like EVERYBODY has.

For example most of my friend in UNi, used it for a chat and facebook almost everytime, argh!! such antisocial,” hellooooo. Im over here talk to me please don’t ignore me with ur Blackberry Shit, at least do work, or pay attention to teacher in class” for god sake!!

We called them BBB ( Blackberry Boy ) and BBG ( Blackberry girl ). But for people who already worked is totally fine with me, coz BB is really useful for them, email some stuff, do worked online, etc etc.

But.. still! I hate it!!

Indonesia is in lot lots of debt!!

2009-03-28T19:14:00.000-07:00

DID u know that Indonesia owe about RP.112, 19 Billion that’s like um rp100,000 million times a hundred (lots of zeroooo), and it even said that until 2045, it will not settle. Wow! How scary is that.
In this kind situation is hard to blame anyone! Except those corrupted people, yeah they’re totally needed be sentence to DIEEE!!!

Before! Millions and millions were donated to governor, coz they had this big plan to make a Monorail around the city but it just stopped, and no one even bother to continued it (There’s a lot of pillar standing in the city like “Setia budi, Senayan, Kuningan and etc2” just standing there uselessly), I mean Where r all the money has gone too, another BIG question???

There’s so many complicated things happen with our governor, coz they still needed money to make Indonesia a lot better. Like help people starving, jobless people, Mud in java, etc2. im really concern about this, coz this is my country , I love being here and all, but after hearing this feel like wanna get out from this messed up country and feel not save, for my children later on… I don’t know… probably im thingking too much!!!!

source: koran Kompas

Why Bother ???

2009-03-28T12:02:00.000-07:00

okay! u must know Enrique Iglesias right,
recently he just release a single "takin back my love" feat Ciara,
what a great combination, really Hot Video

but then! they make another one with THE SAME title and same Video clip but this time feat. Sarah Conor , and mute Ciara voice.

he already have one! why bother! why didnt they just make Another single! whats wrong, or probably they just do it for fun? is it because Sarah is better then Ciara,.................................. NOOOO.. I dont think so!!! the one with Ciara is a LOT better, see it for urself
oh i almost forgot, if u guys can see a title "arakay film" on the beginning of the Video, what the hell is that supposed to mean yah? argh Just whateverr!!

New Korean Hip hop Star is rising up, will it beat Rain???

2009-03-21T19:40:00.000-07:00

Seung ri Victory

one of korean hip hop group called "big bang" (which i know but i never knew he was in the band) until now while he's doing solo debut single came out. and change his look. good Job.

Strong baby

featuring Leader of the Big Bang, Gdragon (LOL...)

altough he's quite young (18) he's a good singer and dancer but i think is Not as good as Rain Does! The dance ya!

The song is quite good! made me so wanna dance ( is been so long i didnt go to R&B club) made me wanna go again, Only if they play this song! then move to somewhere else, hehehehe!!

love it!!

Lazy, exited, Tired, Tragic, Drama, Panic, Worried, Emptyness, Fun, Disappointment, sad, relief and happy!! U Named it, Had it all In one day!!!!

2009-03-21T18:44:00.000-07:00

Just simply amazing!!!

What a BumMer Night

After helping my dad at the office 4 the whole day Lazylyy, went straight to the gym then I went home get ready
Sandal, Short jeans, with coklat T-shirts , and a pin stripes brown coklat shirts(in case we are planning to have another activity)
to have a dinner with bunch of ARISAN friends.

The place was okay! The place served Indonesian food that cheap and unik, also the place is kinda nice have a band, BER LESEhan ( sitting on the Ground with A carpet AND a small Table ), Live slow Indi music, Outdoor, but hot when they r not so Windy, the place was called ……..(shit I Forgot!!!))

Then they wanna move somewhere else to a place called IMMIgrant Lounge in Plaza Indonesia, im Not that exited coz still feeling confuse coz im saving money for Next week Event (SUNDAZE which im going to explain it pretty soon) but then im bored! oh well so I was saying “OK!! lets Go have another drunkyyyyy night!! Yuhuuu”!!!

Just 5 minutes after we left the place on the way too Immigrant Lounge, one of my friend (D) which In My car, gotta have to go back home coz she didn’t get the permission to go! Just 1 minute after that I got message that my “dad is sick and he was in the hospital having his heart checked.”

I was PaniC, Scared, Shocked reading it, then I call my friend who followed me from )behind to stop over!! so the rest of the people in my car could join then Exept ((D) thank god she lives nearby the hospital that my dad are into). Then I paced up speed to the hospital ( panicly, shockingly, speechless, Worried, Empty, i couldn’t think of anything other than my Dad) keep smoking all the time. ……..

Ater I was arrived at the Hospital I’m trying to find myself a parking lot, then straight running inside to the Hospital.
Then….. There They are my whole family at the lobby, with my dad sitting on the wheelchair waiting for their car.
After I talked to them, I feel soo relieved, that he was OK. The Doctor were saying that he was only tired , and needed for a rest.. arrghh!! I could still feel my body shaking the whole time.

So after Im taking my dad home, my mom asked me to take her friends home, so I was thinking maybe I could join my friends again At Immigrant Plaza Indonesia , I called my friends asked them where exactly the place is. And is it okay with short jeans, they all were saying “ u could try bud! Probably is okay!”

After a long walked from a parking lot to the Entrance of Immigrant, I found my self feeling SHIT! Like not confident, I look like a mess, im wearing short jeans with shirt that I brought before and sandals. Coz the place is a loungy club that looks very classy and everybody look so good (high class and all), then i asked to one of the bodyguard “is it okay wearing short jeans and sandals” and he was saying “ ur shirts Is very nice but Im sorry no sandals and short jeans allowed” ……DEENG!!! DEEENG!!! DEEEENG!!!!!….. ARRGGHHH!!

I was soo pissed why couldn’t anyone told me about this place,……… without doubts feel like I wanted to go home straight , so I text my friend inside that im going back home with a lot of disappointment, as I found my self on Elevator , my phone ringing and it was Richi, “bud Where R you?? Can u came back? Lets talk outside Immigrant for a while!”..

As I was there again I found Ola and richi… then we talked for a while then I went home, still feeling ashamed and dissapoinment...... well…. is not like the end of the world or something but still...u know..!!

As I arrived at home I found a MARTABAAK! On a kitchen table! Uugh I was hungry anyway, didn’t much eat since breakfast, after a one bite somehow all feeling that I had yesterday just gone! saved By martabak! but then the taste was OK maybe only becoz i was really hungryy and aaaaaaaall That happening before!!!....

ahhhhhhh!!!!!! Feel so good to be home…!! then I checked my dad went to my room, change my clothes, went to my bed! (forgot to had a shower) then I found my self Today right here in my computer writing this!!

How Awesome Yesterday was!!!

Ogh I Just bough a DVD 2 days ago
( Ugly betty, Chuck, Private practice) uugh im having movie marathon today, but of course GYM in the afternoon then having Another Arisan at Semanggi!!
Busy busy day!!!!

Bums!!! give it OR not?

2009-03-16T15:57:00.000-07:00

Give some money it or nOt!

As I lives In Jakarta! I found so many Bums on the Road like, Outside The building, small restaurant beside the Road, Park, Outside Uni, and etc2.

Something Got through my mind as I stopped at the Traffic Light, somewhere around Jakarta. I saw Lots of bum from Kids caring a baby, Disable man, Mom and The kid at her Back, Really old people and a really ugly Drag queen but then

Also there’s this bum caring a box with a lot of stuff on it and selling it to people , selling Newspaper, Water, cigarette, gum, just everything….. what do you called them? And also I saw this disable man using a wheelchair selling newspaper..WOW.

As I stopped at the Traffic lights there’s this
this lady who look messed up come up to my side of the car pull out of her hand begging for Money ,………I was trying to find some coin to give it to her…but then . . . . . .!!!!!! there’s this Guy selling me some newspaper on the other side of the car, ……”oh man what am I gonna do!....just about 2 second self thingking.. i decided to not giving her money coz, if I do ! what would the guy feel…. you know!

If I give her money Probably The Newspaper guy would think .......... why does he had to work and selling newspaper, while he could had money by just asking it to people on the road by pretending to be sick and put a sad face.

It is our duty to help Poor people so they could live a better life, and as human to help each other but in this time the situation just Not right. I do help the poor like going to orphanage, or put some money the box I see on the Mosque and comunity of..... whatever it called. Hummmm. is the way im thinking is wrong??

Since then if i see another bump i would give them money! But Only where there are no people selling sutff.. yeaahh!!

New Place to hang out!! Social house

2009-03-16T07:25:00.000-07:00

last sunday was great!

a friend of mine taking me out for a drink with bunch of other friends

in some New Hot places right in the middle of the city called
SOCIAL HOUSE,
at first i though it probably just like a normal lounge. you know Indoor, just sofa of course , nothing amazing or anything, But this one! is just WOW!!

Nothing special on the Entrance, just a normal supermarket and so on! But at the end of the supermarket, u see this lots lots of Wine hanging out on the wall ready to Buy!!
There's this sign on the wall,.............. well its not a sign, is it a logo?? or a a mark?? what do u call it for a wise word??

Argg whatever, btw it was saying something,... like " when u eat without wine, u havent fully enjoy ur life" well something like it!! and i think im agreeing with that!

and it was all very Expensive! and i did not have that Much money with me! oh god! what am i gonna do!!.........

but then as i walk through in. i see this balcony that have the best view In Jakarta, its sooo stunning! 6 o'clock in the afternoon! watching sundown right in the middle of the city, just what im dreamming of!!

i found myself screaaming!!

"WAAITEEEEEERRRR..... 1 BEEEER PLEEASE!!!!!!!!!!" i dont care how much it is! im gonna sell my phone, my boxer, mywatch, borrow, WHatEVEER!! the only thing in my mind just bEEr, Peanuts and a sofa! thats all!!

I Seat on the SOfa over there, U can see it on the pics ! hehehe! it was very very comforting!!

after 1 bottle , my friend order another bir for us with glass, a teqila and a chopstick ( i was wondering what the chopstick are for).

then he put out open.. all the chopstick on the top of the glass, like finger doing Peace

and put the tequila on the top of chopstik, then...... all together we "BANG" the desk loudly.

the tequila right drop inside the glass and mix with the bir. it was wonderful and fun Doing it!!

aagh i wanna do it again!! and it taste good!

call me lame! i know i just try this once, i saw this a lot on a tv show, but never with the chopstick! it was greeaat!

then we talk talk spending all our afternoon over there drunk till we sober then drunk again!

hehehehe!!

Revolutionary road

2009-03-03T05:54:00.000-08:00

One hell of a movie! I might say! no wonder it got an academy awards!!!

With Kate Winslet ( April) and Leonardo Dicaprio (Frank) as their come back , played together as a husband and Wife. Frank who r well paying but boring office and April is a housewife who r still attached to her old carrer as an actress, with two kids they lived on Revolutionary road where hopes and future could settled in. Until one day they got this great idea to move out from the hopeless and emptiness of life, to live in Paris where they could feel a better living and excitements comes again into their life.

At first I though this movie is a bit boring as I watched the first 20 mnts, but later on I found the excitement is comes up! Question about living, someone that really important to u, u loved someone but u hated them as well, is live is gonna be boring like hell for the eternity after u got married, living together and have kids, but then what?

If you think about it, as we young right now, we lived to the fullest, we go to school, we go to uni, meet friends, we study hard, fine a great job, live with our partner till the end, to make a better future, and living till we reach the END zone of life. But where are all the excitement go, could we go chasing our dreams again?.

What if our partner want a different things, and they relying to us to follow their dream but at the moment we live in a comfort zone. Too much to ask about living in this world! as myself scarred living day by day and growing old. Is Scary like hell and sad.

But that is Life, to experienced things, to feel things, to feel all the excitements, to be loved and love, so until one day where we couldn’t do anything anymore, and think what have we done in the past and have…… no…. regrets at all.

one funny things about this movie is, U know how the Titanic ended right! Leonardo died so they didnt lived together after the incident! well this movie looks,.... what if? he didnt died! and live happily forever and ever, what kind of live they could be living?!! there's connection between the 2 movie! i just love it!! even a bid sad! but amazing!!

THE Ugly Betty Dilemma!!!

2009-03-03T00:15:00.000-08:00

Watching ugly betty made me realize something!!!

The dreams that I’ve been wanted since I was young!!
Working in the big Magazine company and live right in the middle of the city!! Seeing all those building pass through by, smell of the great atmosphere, the scenery of sun goes down, company by beer or Coffee on a café right in the middle of the city, the light shine through the town, looking all these gorgeous people, even the bitches one are fun to see, OH what a life!!!!

im soo wanna be.. Ugly Betty right now!!!... WHICH ... btw LOVE the show!!!

i’ve been hold on to it for 4 years now! and I still haven’t made any progress to made that happen! ( sigh!!!!) just today I receive my test result for last semester and its bad!! Im only pass half the subject that I’ve been doing! Now I gotta stay one more year to finish my UNi!! Arrghhhh!!! God what did I do deserve this! I work hard , study hard, I do all my homework, I though I did great on my test! But WHY!!!!!......

I cant wait to earn money of my own, im tired and shamed of still asking money from my parents and got attached by them, well not exactly hated it, but the whole time! No no no honeeyy!!

oh well, im done being all pathetic and all sad!! Guess…. I gotta try harder this year so I could finish my UNi, and fulfill my dream again!!

So much things I wanna do! Like working in Magazine, being an announcer on a Radio, be instructor at the cycling class, participating on Better an Bigger Event Organizer ( last time ..Such a fraud) . meet higher people. Even though what I’m doing at UNI is sooo not focusing on that !! But finishing uni is soo Important!! and Yeah im gonna do it!! I know that I can!!! WOHOOO!!!

By the way!!

Cant believe that RIhanna or Rohanna got back together with Chris brown! What the hell?? So... was it a lie that chris punch her at the face........, no one could ever ever forgive that!!!!!, unless ur so sick and crazy!! Oh well!! They’r never been on my love list anyways. So.. Good on you guys!!!!

The Most Inspired Movie eva!

2009-01-27T07:39:00.000-08:00

Yes Man!
this is the greatest movie i ever watched!
this movie inspired me soo much!! and also really funny from the start til the end!!! the rate never go down!
Before.. i never really like Jim carrey, but after watched this movie, he's like really such a good ACtor! is just WOW!! i love him now!!

Jim Carey roled as a guy who r unsocial person since he was broken up with his girlfriend, everytime he asked to go out by his friend, he rejected it, everytime people asked him for help he rejected it, mean to everyone, and seems dont care about anything else other than siiting at home and being alone.
Until one day he meet with the most inspired person , and change his way of life, and the reasons why he lived, by saying "Yes" , even though he encountered so many things that make him fall but there's always something come out from it .

by saying Yes! me might:
- learn new things
- got new friends maybe new boyfriend or girlfriend
- loves
- helping others
- got a better job
- experience something that we havent
- got connection
- Happy
- sad
- Found new Purpous in life
- Reasons why we live in this cruel world
- WHY do we have to be Patient
- there's so many things i that u could found abour MORal!, i just couldnt describe it anymore !!

People seriously see this movie , RIGHT NOW!!
it started change my life a bit!

between love, Hate and Jelousy?

2009-01-23T10:42:00.000-08:00

For music!!.

Im a person who are easily fallen in love to such musician ! ...if '... the songs sounds good to me!but somehow when they get toooo famous , where all the radio played the song over and over and over again...., and everybody talked about it soo much! i started to dislike them?? dont know why??

for example:
Rain which is a pop star from Korea that get famous all over the world after the 3rd album release suddenly he is just everywhere, He even got an offered to colaborated with some Hollywood singer like, Lil’ Kim, 3LW . I fancy him a LOT coz he's hot with A great body, cute face, he can sing, and he can Dance,..........well AT least i was!.

coz since his video from the 4rd album , came out, i just dont feel exited anymore, like THose Gilrs, and thos fans of him.
SPECIALLY for his newest a single "Love story" from the album "Rainism", so much for the name and the album name, yeaah we know is all about you!
look at him
<== "uh im sexy, im hot, Im a Bad BOY" come and get Me!!.

He even said that the single of the "LOve story" is what he had been experienced. ................................SO HE was A GANGSTER NOW!!! we totally believed you??
oh god!!!

but then i got exited when Another Korean Singer

BOA came out her newest single " eat you up" which happen to be fully english, and i love the song,..... NOT her coz from what i hear! she faked her age so she COULD get the titled of "the youngest success girl famous Alive", which now she said she's 22 but her reeal age is 26. i dont know who F*ck up, is it her or her producer. but....... what i know is ..., BOA is the only girl or a woman from Korea that made it to all over the world, at least that is her +, tell me IF im Wrong??? is there another girl from korea that famous as her?.

Japan has UTada Hikaru.
and from Our own Country, WE have ANGGUN , uuhh i looovve her.

btw.. Anggun has new single "Crazy" from the Newest Album "Elevation"

just bought it, an is awesome!

the new single "Crazy" hav the beat rythem that u could dance with ! sooo another AWEESSOmeee!!!

doesn't she look amazing?? TOtally yeaahh!!

pancakes crazyness

2009-01-19T19:23:00.000-08:00

A few days ago I went to this amazing restaurant called “Pancious Pancake House”. They have many kinds of pancake with diferent style and topping, from HOT SERVED; like burger, sausage , etc, COLD SERVED ; like a round pancake or a wafle with a lot variety of ice cream and sauce. Not only pancake that they served, they also have all kind of pasta that will give such pleasure to Ur tongue.

First; I started my meal with Fettuccini Chicken mushroom, a creamy sauce fettuccini with boneless chicken like nugget pieces, with cheese all over. Companied by chicken salad, the most I like about this salad is “the bread” a.. dried one and crunchie, such a great mix with the salad, make ur mouth not bored.

And one over here is a Blueberry waffle with vanilla ice cream and a blueberry sauce on all over it. Usually a fruit sauce doesn’t have a bit some fruit on it, but this they include a bit of blueberry fruit, so u can still taste the original source of the sauce, as i started slice the Pancake with my spoon from the sauce with a 2 or 3 small bits of the fruit then goes to the Vanilla ice cream and small piece of the waffle…then slowly go to my mouth…hmmmm..”amazing”.

Last one here is the

Bailey’s pancake
pancake with a vanilla ice cream and on top Bailey’s mix with chocolate caramel and almond nuts on all over. This one is the best! I couldn’t describe it here, I would though but takes too long!, after I had a bit of this, feel like im going to heaven.

I didn’t eat this all alone loh!!! there’s 4 of us, and after we ate we became so freakin full like crazy and cant move for 30 mnts and we still have to force ourself to get out from the place
coz we started to feel sick of the smell.
I remember one of my friend said that ”A MOMENT IN THE LIPS, FOREVER IN THE HIPS” yeah I guess that’s true but if I go once a moths that should be alright, and hard work at the gym after it. HELL yeah!
oh GOD!!! I WANNA SAY THANK U TO U! for letting me live this far and taste that pancake! Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!

Love AND Hate.... Sunday!!!

2009-01-17T22:11:00.000-08:00

love:
1. is a great day for the hang over
2. Relaxing at home doing nothing
3. no need to go shower
4. playing games all day
5. watching DVD
6. staying on Bed all day long
7. go to the mall
8. no traffic
9. swimming!!
10. and everything just everything! that could relax mysellf!!

Hate:
1. Bored comes fast
2. realize tomorrow is monday
3. lonely
4. Broke after last night!
5. no car
6. too crowded at mall
7. day goes really faast!!
8. no new DVD
9. no new game
10. too much lazyness
11. Hot outside
12. arrghhhhhhh!!!!
13. nothing to do!!
14. there's no friend coming over or there!!! coz they wanna be alone for the day!
15. all the radio song... boring,
16. EVERYTHING juust boring
17. another...... aaarghhhhhhhh!!
18. And ANOTHER... AAAAAAAAAAARGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Should be Proud OR NOT

2009-01-09T19:45:00.000-08:00

yes !! i know it is NIDJI , the most well known band ever in Indonesia, should be proud of! coz of 1 thing that im really proud of them , they been asked to made a Soundtrack of a tV series called "HEROES"

this year Heroes already made into a 3rd season. which sometime i don't get movie itself coz their lack of story and trying to be sooooooooooo misterious!!! so freaking confusing, but since i like a fiction movie, it is worth to be watched and still.

ok let me get back on The NIdji thing!!!!!
ok since they were asked to made the song, titled "Shadow" the music were good and is pretty amazing, i mean their music is kinda Unique and all that!! ALLLmost the same like "Coldplay" well its okay though, their the only one who could keep up with ColdPlay, NOT like some Other Shiittyyy Band ...." U know what........!!!!"

the only thing about this Video that, they were asked to do, is TOTALLLLYYYYY SUUUUCCCKKKEEDD!!! soo embarrassing, cmoooonnn! they have the best actor from Indo In their Video. like:

Nicholas Saputra &

Fahrani

and still!! who the hell is their producer? soooo not out thereeee!! cmoon in this Century where all the graphics and awesome visual effect has been produced, and not even a part of them being used properlyy!! looks like some old movie and just know about visual effect .
well thats about it !

The song are good but still the video sooo dissapointing!!

"Solange Knowles"

2009-01-07T17:17:00.000-08:00

just woken up this morning! and i saw this Video , and i lovveee it!!
my eyes just straight open, standing up and go dancing !
wohoooooooooooo!!
such a happy song!!!

I also found the remix one
and is pretty cool!

Beautiful BOxer

2009-01-07T10:12:00.000-08:00

A beautiful boxer is a movie that based from a true story in Thailand, is about a boy who loves wearing make up and dancing a traditional dance that only a Thailand woman would do it, coz of his differences...... he got aroused so much by people.

Until one day when he run into a fight that he cant avoid, he found a way to protect himself, and to fulfill his family needs. then he tried to do it again but this time he wanted to be better, that is when, he found a dojo that teach "THAI BOXING"...... but doubt always comes up to him, is this what he wanted to become. staying in a man body and keep wearing make up, where's everyone keeps louging at him ( like a circus ), a Thai Boxer who wears make up!
.

I think this movie are really good!! be whatever u want, do whatever u want, as long its feels so right to ur Heart, and be honest to yourself!!!

is like telling me to stop whining!!

GUys seriously watch it in you tube lohh!! is amazing

accident

2008-12-22T20:12:00.000-08:00

I got these picture a few days ago just on my way to Puncak, I bet this happen coz the driver is not patient enough, to stay on the line coz there was a lot of truck up head, and hit a small pillar at the right side on the road, for trying to pass the trucks! I didn’t see any ambulance or blood around it, so hopefully the driver and the passenger are all fine yaaahh!

Hopefully after I put these picture, people should be more careful with their driving skill, and mostly patient is needed! If u r in a hurry, Well Suck it! And Waiitt!!! U don’t want to get into accident right! And arrived at your destination safely! Life is too precious to be gambled! Just enjoy the ride, put some song and sing a long! Hehehe! God I sounds so lame !!

get in d line laadyyy

2008-12-22T02:59:00.000-08:00

At the theater
A few days go, me and my friend “Tara” are going to watch A movie in 21 at Senayan city . as we stayed on the line we talked stuff, and still choosing what movie we should watch, just a few second later,.................................... there’s this woman just cutting through us and STAAYY right in front of us, .......................What the hell is this woman doing, without thinking just cutting trough us like that, she was this young executive woman and just a bit older than us, and only couple more people before us to buy the ticket, can’t she wait! AN older woman should give us like a better example, and this Woman are not!

So I knock softly on her Shoulder….. “Excuse me Miss. We were on the line, sorry the queue are behind us! So do u mind!” ….” But U weree…aaa..uu..mmmm, ..okay then” she replied, without saying sory or whatver, she move straight away and was a bit “lost of words” but she take it nicely.

See!! Sometimes people need to be told to realize what is wrong and what’s right!! As long we could keep it with a cool head and be careful of anything comes from your mouth, everything would go smoothly, and ended up nicely, without a fight!, so yeah! Get In the line OKAYY!!

traffic! oh well just enjoy it!! untiilll.....

2008-12-22T02:48:00.000-08:00

On the road:
Jakarta is the busiest city in Indonesia, where every time , and every where is all full of traffic, is just un predictable to know, what is exact time to go to your destination place from wherever you are, the solution is simple, go early!! Ok!!

One day I go early to go to Campus, I took highway so I would not stuck in d traffic on a downtown road! But as usual since our city is soo crowded, there’s still a bit of traffic in the Highway( even though is not usually happen), in the highway there’s 3 line and a half line where only emergency use only could stop there, as I stay in the line nicely and go like from 10 – 20 km perhour , pretty slow yaahh!!.

out of nowhere there’s this small car, cutting through from the emergency line , and go to straight in front of me, “Shi**” oh well I guess maybe he’s in a hurry or something , a couple second later a bus trying to cut trough again, I don’t know how that bus could fit in that half line , “ oh man Not again” oh well” as I was speaking to my head.

Then couple mnts later another car trying to get trough me again from that small line, “ THAAT IIITTS!!” NO MOOREEE” SO IM NOT GIVING in of course!!! so I pull my car aside so it could not pass me! Hehehe! No waay maaannn! Half of my car stay in the small line and half stay in right line,!! Eat that!!! As I focus on the road , I saw the bus before, ahead looks like stopping, so i get back to my line! And let that car behind me before!! pass me!! Then as I pass the bus! I saw that small car before again but this time there’s a police officer with them ! hahahaha! I laugh so hard!! see!! that’s what happen for cutting in the line!!! Justice conquer!!!

This happen all the time at Highway between Ancol bay city and all the way to MaL taman angrek, during busy time , so Guys and girls beWAAAREE of that yaaa!!!

Shoockingg!!! Ricky's martin become the father of twin

2008-12-15T07:37:00.000-08:00

OMG! he have a kid , and is a twin, And he still single?? god so confusing,

the baby were named Matteo and Valentino!

Wait!! when u want a baby via surrogate, that u have to be a couple, how can this be approved??

so hard to find this picturee!!

but they look soo cute! aawwhhhh!

hehehehehehe!!

im happy for u ricky martin!

wuhuuuuuuuuuuu!!!

Coffee Talks!!!

2008-12-14T06:45:00.000-08:00

Coffees talk

What do you need for your breakfast? What do you need when you relaxing during afternoon? What did you drink when you outside of the office? What’s your company when you have a lot of work to be done? Coffee could be the answered, because for some people, coffee does help you to relax and get ready what’s head of you.

What is coffee?
Coffee is a stimulation beverage where its coming from a seed that grew along with the coffee tree. It was found in the 9th century on a high place of utopia, from then spread out to Egypt, Yaman. At the 15th century goes to Armenia, Persia, Turki, North Africa, Italy, whole Europe, America then goes to all over the world.

Did you know?
Coffee is not that bad for your health, it even can become your friends when you on a diet. Cofee is a mild stimulation which effected with people nerve behavior, which is moody, Paranoia, anxiety, mental performance, and making you awake for a while, in 2004 coffee has been named to be top Agricultural export for 12 countries and in 2005 has become the 7th biggest export values. Till know, there’s a rumors have a side effects, but as long as u know how much u drink and at normal state, you’ll gonna be okay.

How People drink their Coffee
Many People put a lot sugar on their coffee and feel the pleasure of the sweetness from the coffee, well people that is not how u drinks Ur coffee, aware of diabetes! Yes sugar could do that bad! it Is better when u have no sugar at all and taste of that bitterness, NOW that is a coffee, even though is bitter, but once u get used to it , I’m pretty sure u will find the difference of the Taste from a coffee from different Brand that spread all over the world, COZ every country has their own special unique taste of coffee. But I f u can’t handle bitter, just a bit of sugar will do.

The inspiration will come through you when u have a coffee on a certain places and the right time:

Early morning with a low sugar cookies or bread, sitting or stand beside a window or outside with the view.
Afternoon when sun goes down in outdoor café or a beach, with chilling kinda of Music company u.
Nighttime with a sky view in sight

Don’T:

Never drink a coffee with a drug/Medicine like Pil ( fact that someone that does , died straight ahead, my uncle friends just died couple months ago because of it, so never eva).
Drink a coffee during day light or the light & heat from sun goes straight to ur head! Just not right! Headache will come after a few minutes, Well...... if is indoor, probably just fine loh!
After a big meal! A researcher found out that, consuming a coffee after a whole big meal, is bad for your health! Coz the vitamin from a meal that u eat, just extract bad and make u consume too much vitamin, well something like that (like make u fatter easyly).
Fruit and coffee, doesn’t work as well for u’r stomach.

"MALIQ & D'ESSENTIAL" the greatest soul band , in Indonesian Music Industry.

2008-12-14T06:22:00.000-08:00

Maliq & D’essesntials one of the greatest Band in Indonesia that their music is Fun, Cool, Chill, Relaxing, Fungky and Sexy. Their music always gave me this chilling sensation and make me calm every time I got pissed. One day I went to La’Bridge In Ancol ( is an Outdoor café where stand on the top of the sea) have a beer (or a coffee also work) and chilling with friends, when they put Maliq on with the breeze of the wind follow by sound of the water and a yellow colour of the sky with half of the sun light up the sea. And suddenly! I feel that Life is soo Beautiful, Such a Perfect Moment.

Maliq & D’essential has a lot of influence for many great musician in Indonesian Music Industry, their started their carreer on 15 of mei 2002 which have 8 people in it an make music which called SOULFUL. The name of maliq is a short from music and live instrument quality which the concept come from Angga (vocal) and Widi (producer, composer, arranger, & song writer) what a kind of person right! The name of the essentials also resembles of each member Indah & Dimi (vocal), Satrio (gitar), Ifa (piano), Jawa (bass) also Amar (saxophone). In the early of their career they were only a band who perform in a café and lounge like Jamz, Mana Lounge, The Bar Four Season Hotel, etc. They showcase has propose to hear songs like black music specially Soul Music.

Then it happen to them in the year 2004 Maliq’ has joined with a Recold album Company and releasing the album in the early 2004 with the first single ”Terdiam” dan second single “untitled” release in the early 2006 with new album “Repackaged” with the special edition an a new hit single”The One”. At the same time one of their vocalist “Dimi” has resigned, so she could concentrate on her solo album.

In 2007 their continue their journey with all new album “Free Your Mind” (which is totally great album) with their new hits single “Dia” and “Free Ur Mind” as my favorite single. And since then their were a lot busier and were asked to make a soundtrack movie at 2008 ( forgot the movie title). But then again one of their team has resigned “Satrio” resigned an then later exchange by “LaLe”. Maliq & D’essentials will go on and making more music and hopefully on their next album will be the one waiting for coz of their 6 year journey experience will make them more mature on music and more creative. Looking forwards guys!!

Kylie comes back!!!!

2008-12-14T06:03:00.000-08:00

Kyle Ann Minogue or Kyle Minogue as born in Australia May 28, 1968, beginning her career in the late 1980s as her role in the Australian television soap opera call “Neighbours” , before she started her career as a pop singer and recording artist.

After her success on 2004 of her 9th album (Body language), Kyle was having a break from her tour coz she was sick from Breast cancer, such terrible news shock the entire fan who loves her, then it touches Kyle heart. She got up! And work really hard to fight off her sickness.

In November 2005, Following Kylie's Successful Recovery from Breast Cancer, Minogue's tour management in Australia announced that Kylie Minogue will continue her Showgirl: The Greatest Hits Tour in late 2006. And It was on the news that concert was a very emotional for her as the fan all gathered and welcoming her back on the stage.

As her recovery from her Cancer, she’s back for her 10th album in 26th November 2007 with her long waited album “X”, and the first single was “two hearts”. As her tour concert was showed in Paris London on 7 may 2008, was totally rock and her fans were amazed by the concert. Even Though the timing was not inconvenienced coz There’s a queen of music “Madonna” was having a concert as well, at the same time. people in Paris confused because of it, Kylie Minoque with her amazing Soft High voice along with the dance beat, or The Super Legend Madonna ‘ as her come back also’. As a result the concert was totally a success, many people had gone there and watch Kylie on the concert, even though is not much crowded like Madonna Concert.

Couple weeks ago, Kyle had concert in Singapore ( damn! Why didn’t she Stop here in Indo, AAGGHH!!!) it makes me sooo angry, coz I didn’t come seeing her there with my own eyes, I should had save up some money so I could, oh well!! right now , she doin a lot of concert in Australia, ==> have FUn Guys, lucky U.

Her latest single was “wow” and it is wow, I could go dancing on the street with that!!, but my favorite was “the one” is one of the single also in this X album of her. welcome back Kyliee!!!!!, and please come to Indonesiaa!

Basement Jaxx perfomed in INDonesia!

2008-12-14T05:46:00.000-08:00

Everybody knows that dance music is in trouble. The DJs are too old, the clubs too lazy, the promoters too greedy and the beats too tired. But everybody also knows that they still want to dance. They just need music that surprises and excites and busts loose from house music’s ever-decreasing circles Music, in short, like Basement Jaxx’s third album, Kish Kash.

Kish Kash isn’t a traditional dance record but it’s one you can dance to. A riotous collision of classic songwriting and writhing rhythms, it springs from both the electro-punk ferocity of “Where’s Your Head At” ( which is totally my fav) and “Get Me Off” and the more reflective moments in Basement Jaxx’s back catalogue, but never the middle ground.

The Indo dance Music Festival on May 17 at Carnaval Beach and Segarra, Ancol Bay, Indonesia, was much more fun than it sounds from its name, featuring as it did house music, old school hip-hop and street art.

It took a decade before Jakarta audiences could see "underground" Dance Music artists -- who have been around since the early 90s -- perform live. The performers were hip-hop crew Naughty By Nature, Basement Jaxx, Rub N Tug, DJ Lethal of Limp Bizkit, Diplo, M.A.N.D.Y. and Krafty Kuts. The promoter also invited lighting designer Andy Mutton and visual artist VJ Micology to enhance the spectacle. Most of the foreign artists performed at the rave-like Carnaval Beach, while local DJs and hip-hop performers, such as Naughty By Nature and DJ Lethal, appeared at Segarra. The main area was massive, with dancers in feathery costumes and DJs taking center stage.

Meanwhile, Felix Buxton of Basement Jaxx said before performing that he would play new tracks from the group's upcoming album. "I've been here only for a couple of hours but it seems it will be a great night," he said, AND IT WAS GREAAT!!! Basement Jaxx which started in Brixton, England, has emerged as the best-known electronic music artists. They have produced hits, such as Remedy, Bingo Bango and Red Alert.

However, some of the festival visitors who were familiar with their works in the last decade reckoned they were much better then. Others lamented the duo's decision to play out slower-tempo tracks and remixes of pop artists, such as Justin Timberlake. Basement Jaxx sound lies somewhere between the genre of commercial house sound and techno. This became apparent in their set, which drew to an end with more minimalist techno tunes.

As I saw they performance they were totally awesome, the music and the Visual were just working each other. People started to scream when the song they were playing one of their single “Rendezvous” and they just keep on dancing and hearing what they were playing. Also I got lucky to get these guys photos with me! The most extraordinary feeling towars me.

Vampire IS BACK!!!

2008-12-03T20:59:00.001-08:00

Vampire Comes back!

Yes! Finally! After a long time movie about Vampire is not been made!

! Vampire is back on a Movie titled “Twilight”, is a love story between a Vampire and a young human teenage girl ( Bella swan ) who just move out from her mother to live with her dad in a rainy town Forks and expect nothing change with her life…. until she meet ( Edward Cullen ) a Vampire who comes from a family (Cullen) whose refuse to drink Human blood and prefer to animal blood , a mysterious guy that full of secret who got attached to Bella and see straight to her soul, then started to have feeling to each other.

The story goes on when Bella and Edward encountered another Vampire clan that attached by Human Scent of Bella with their thirst of blood, and disrupted their way of life. Edward and the Cullen family do anything they can to save her. Will the Cullen family could safe Bella.. U better watch the movie Urself! Hehehehe!

This movie takes u away beyond your imagination; I found it’s good, real good! Where there’s romance, a fight between Vampires, jokes, drama, everything in it. And I bet when u watch this movie u will fallen in love with Edward gorgeous looks and his accent.

but his dad is cooler.
I love vampire movie , its been such a long time that we don’t have one and also this vampire movie is a lot better than the previous one is just different than any kind of it. Have u guys seen the movie Blade u know the one is half human and half vampire, and that movie is kinda to much fighting on it and less romance, c’mon people need romance and a good looking cast also needed in the movie.

I almost not watching this movie coz I heard from the Critics guy from ‘E! Entertainment daily news’, that this movie is just Ok! That only people which especially teenager who has read the books would love this movie. Well man U R SOO WROONG!! Anyone could watch this movie!! and would love them!.

So go ahead and watch this movie and tell me if im wrong!!!

new Hobbie!!

2008-12-03T20:17:00.000-08:00

High school musical 2

I can’t believe myself watching this movie, first I though this movie is soo childish and gayish a bit, I keep telling myself that I will never ever watching this kind of movie , where are good looking teenager dancing and singing, is yuck!!

But one day at Sunday morning, where I woke up and lying on bed, lazy to do anything and fill of Boredom , I move a side to look at my drawer, where’s all movie are there! even borrowed movie that I haven’t watch, I don’t know why but my eyes looking at high school musical 2, and i was wondered why d hell did I borrowed this movie? So I just play it on DVD , maybe is fun watching this movie, laughing at this plastic people singing!!! , and then.........

When The singing part started, i feel wanna Throw up but... after i hear half of it... OMG! My point of view straight turn over 180 degrees, they really can sing! And like wow, their voice are really good also the dancing part! I was amazed! Many people thought d character are all plastic, looking really good, great voices but really “that’s the only thing they see from outside and what I see too” well...... Not all plastic people are such a biach, and mean' you know! some of them also have a good side, or maybe some of us were jealous coz they look so good and we'r not!.

The point of this movie is like When u have a big dream that u wanted to achieve soo hard and when u r so close to it, there’s a doubt in your heart!! coz somehow u feel so wrong and there’s a sacrifice to make or some consequences that is happening. but When u think about it, u already good at something else and u only need to realize that!

I give it 3 ½ star for this movie coz this movie could make people remember what u really wanted in ur heart and what I dream is all about, also maybe is a bit too much singing and dancing, but they good really good! So this movie a bit ok to watch for me, how about you guys?

Coz of this movie, im trying my self watching “Mamamia” and I did! From my point of view about this movie, “its funny and is good” .

And looking forward to see the high school musical 3, I know is already out, but im waiting for the DVD to come out!

Amsterdam

2008-11-30T20:12:00.000-08:00

just finish watching harold and kumar 2.

and i wonder!
does weed really legal there??
if it does?
my god! i wanna go to Amsterdam now!
NOW!!!!!

What Exactly is Clubbing? do u need Drugs for it?

2008-11-25T04:34:00.000-08:00

is it the place?
is it what u are?
is it what u do?
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Clubbing is a way of having fun where u could to listen a music then just dance ,like shake ur hips, shake ur legs, shake ur shoulder, shake everything, then just blow u away, IF u like the song. many of my friend said that, why do u need to go to a club if u wanna go dancing? while u could do it in ur room! . well.. my answer will be simple "im not A LONER like u are!"
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when u go clubbing! u hear a song that is very rare on radio, probably meet new people or see people, find ur friends, drinks, get drunk, see the visual efect, see a great lighning.
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Lot of things could happen, is just depend on what is ur comitment when u doing it! and knowing, how to take care of ur self once u inside.
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for some people find it hard to believe that Clubbing is not all that bad! there r good things happen also, from what i,ve experienced it really clear my head from all the things happen during the week , i found it very relaxing. u go there with ur friends dancing, loughing, gossiping, or maybe hooking up! and a lot more to it!
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Some people assump that clubbers are all drugs user, WELL that is Wrong! Doesn’t mean that if one person get cought using! Then the rest of them are using!
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Anyway, why do Need drugs when they sell alcohol!! isn't it almost the same!, THe difference only that DRugs can FU*k U up and end up being in jail! While alcohol make u drunk and still having fun, specially seeing stupid stuff that ur friend do ( well if u control it ) and as long as u GO HOME BY TAXI and wake up at ur bed OR someone else bed, that still fine right!.
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Clubbing does evolved from building where are all smokey, hot coz is too crowded or couldnt get in for a full house, now! they bring the crowd move to the outdoor like beaches where is free smokin area and the place are more wider no more squezzing with the crowd, feel that ocean breeze and enjoy with a bottle of beer!.one more thing that my friend been wondering or make an assumption, that Alcohol make u DUMB!.... really!!!, i think ur the one who Dumb, when ur assumption like that!
so which one are you?

Chris Brown at WMA 2008

2008-11-25T02:23:00.000-08:00

at World Music Awards 2008 Michael Jackson is being rewarded as the king of pop of all time, and for welcoming him, Chris brown performing "thriller" by Michael jakson, and for god sake, it was nOt good! he seems can't find his pitch , he totally embrassing himself at front of all people at the WMA 08,
when the music background started, i was so exited to see Michael performing again .. but then i saw this little guy with no haiir cames up! ( i mean short hair ) .. well its chris brown ..o..K!! then he started to dance which is pretty AMaazing! ( i'm being serious! ). then.. when he started singing, im like " r u serious!!" totally not ok is like someone doing karaoke on stage , for some of u who like chris brown must known that his voice is soft, but for "triller" is even more softer there's no power in it.
look for it on You Tube! and u know what i mean!!!
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me who r just a regular person who loves music but not Profesionaly , find it bad. can u imagine all the Musician that happen to be there! hearing him!!!! ..........
i hope he learn his lesson.
but i love "Forever" by Chris brown.

John legend is revolving!

2008-11-25T01:29:00.000-08:00

The Awesomeness of John legend is back ...fiuhh finally after a long time he release his new single "GreenLight" on a new album Named "revolver" which pretty awesome and he still look classy, cool , good looking and charismatic.

The genre also kinda change from jazzy slow beat music into something this R&B soft beat dance with his amazing soft voice mix, if im prefered it right!, well.. i only hear one song of his new album so maybe there still jazzy romantic music in it.

From what i see on TV and read about John Legend, he hang out with this hip hop black south or east or west , i dont know! where their music kinda mostly speak the whole tiime, like 50 cent, andre 2000(why he called himself that!hummm!), and etc etc. somehow his music just different than any of them , just wow!

my point is! no mather where u are, who u hang out with, doesnt mean that u stayed on the same path! make a differences and U"LL be Recognize.

just see his new video " green light" is awesome.

dilemma!!

2008-11-20T09:11:00.000-08:00

okay! today was sooo horrible!!

im officially hate my friend, all of them!! FU**ing hell they just kept saying
" OMG BUD ur sooo fat right now, again!!!"" ....again again and again!
not just one person LOTS lots of them, Shut up already, i know!
aargghhh!!

well if i think about it!!, ....in... positive way, maybe they remind me to stop eating on heavy stuff, back to exercise! no more Burger king, J'co or and etc etc.
i guess i could try, well see!!

mtv EMA Liverpool 2008, is the greatest awards this year

2008-11-10T09:49:00.000-08:00

What a show, of this MTV Europe Music Awards 2008 in Liverpool, im just gonna say it, is the best Awards show this year eva been made.

not like other country like Malaysia or in America when they make the show, the performance are great from the artist, and spectacular graphics that they have, specially the killers.

Katy Pery is the host of ema this year, and let me tell u guys she done a pretty awesome job of hosting it, she's beautiful, gorgeous, and also funny reaal funny. as the show start she amazed the audience by standing on a really big lipstick wearing a football shirts with dancers along her side down. she also keep coming with diferent amazing costume that make the audience just surprised, Specially when performing one of her newest single 'Hot and Cold' at the end of the show and 'i kissed a girl' at the beginning the show , she also rewarded as Best new act, well.... congrats to you katy!!!.

Beyonce also Performing 'if i were a boy' at the Ema 2008, which is awesome , she sing it beutifully. Beyonce just got this magic when she perfomed, make ur heart wanna melt and feel every single lyrics that comes out of her mouth!! but one thing, on this show just kinda weird, (WHAt THe Hell she was Wearing!!), honey!!! were u just arrived from out of the earth or something then u just got the call an forgot to change!! hehehehe! but other then that, she's Perfect.

U gonna love this one. Performance By Pink Just make the audience wanna expload their head off !! Pink is the only artist that Dare to go walk sidelines with the audience, shaking hand, scream at them, God is just crazy, i would say no more!
look it yourself and you know what i mean.

THe Killers also give an amazing show, even though many people say'd that they couldnt give it all as flowers not quite the pitch ! well what i think is!! they'r awesome, so just shut the hell up u snobby unfamous people who thinks flowers sucks at live!!!.

now...as Flowers begin to sing there's this big huge boxes at the theatre with blue lightning on every side and written "HUMAN" as the title of the song they gonna sing , an sudden there's holes showing with different colours on it then there they are, the killers stand inside of it.

i though the ligthning on the side each boxes just gonna be like that all the time, well people i was wrong the sidelines of the boxes starting moves backwards as like the box just moving towards really fast, and keep changing its form, the graphich and controlling of the lightning is just make ur big mouth open wild and ur mind just flew of the amazingness, if u seen a movie like transformers, harry potter with they're awesomeness graphics . WELL Imagine it U seeing it On live..i watch on tv an my skin is just shimmering at the whole show.

watch it on YOu Tube or download it somewhere, and belive it urself.

is a worth to watch this show, too bad i couldnt go there and watch it myself, hehehe! like that ever going's to happen!!

well i guest thats it for a while!! i'l come back again later!!