Friday, July 15, 2011

shallow or whatever u called it

it is true when it called Life
when
people come and go
friends come and go
lovers come and go
family comes and go
everybody comes and go

fun is only 4 a while, lough is only 4 a while, also high smile happy mad angry.
but what stay is URSELF, ....hurt.... d... ache... of getting hurt left behind.

d connection, making a new one d effortm im tired,,,
is being lonely okay? it could be, it could be not

"you only dissapear" why bother

i wish i could just go away anywhere start new , i wanted too soo badlly

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Lives even better

Last sunday was the crazziest moment Ever
where all of us RPM instructor gathering together.
having a tution
to preparing our new lounching RPM 51..
and how do get connected to all d members and help them to lose more weight in safety , easy , hard , sweating classes

which this time i got to show off my skiLL
i know i've been improve better but ther's always little bit scary feeling inside
where i was going to perform with all these LeGEndaryys instructor an be able to watch them asweeLL

such tingling feeling inside is bursting out of my body< such amazing feeelings got,
and seeing their smile and scream at me how they follow my instruction while on a speed track "Break My faLL' Tiesto' such an awesome songs, which amaaazingly, wow,
and just by seeing those smile, i felt more confident then ever..
when they clap their hands , i felt alive then ever, is this what it feel to be recognize,

but then i got to thinking, i dont wanna lose the big head of me becoming bigger bigger an arogant, i need to stay calm , as i alweys a little bit emotionary insane and mad.......
i dont wanna be those arrogant, feeling in d top of d world without even looking down or anything around...

at the end of the day
our headt teacher 4 body jamp, msg me to have to perform SH'bam tuition
and she gave me 2 tracks to perform, shit man is crazyy, i never though that i would be doing that sh'bam thing, taking d Training was an ok mistake but just can't undo it, \
all i have to do now is give my best shot next saturday, i got nail it, if these mean i got to open up, and i have more open , more relax, couse Sh'Bam is free and release the inside of u that u never ever opening it, is quite easy but hardon the alligmnet and d feeling of the freeee...
here we go....
my god i should've doing this more often while im STO***..
hehehehehe
oopppsyyiiee


oh god thank u 4 making me this far, i stiLL love u more than ever

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

blueee...

Where are we now,,...,,u keep hanging me on the top, .,.,.,, I keep telling u how I feel, so u know how I feel , and I know how u feel the same way, is it so Hard 4 to u leaning it on me, relying everything , I'm catching u if u fall, stop being soooo independent, tough, strong, an everything will be just fine, nooo, everything would not go just fine if u hold backz, know u could ,u know that u want it,,,I could've make u happy and u know it,"that's why u around so much, u there all d time" ,, but what is it that made u sooo afraid, damn it I love u so much, that made me wanna scream it to the world,.... Just about d time when I'm starting moving on...last night U come back an again made me feel d love, the moment, the look , the touch,,,,,,, aaaahh craaaaap! Craaaap I'm drowning again and again... I wanna say, I want tell, but I don't want to ... Afraid,, of ruining d moment Chicken lo Bud Chicken Hehehehehe!

Friday, December 3, 2010

Coffeeeee .... music & cigarette.....

its been such a long time i havent
write anything here..
just got the moment........

lunch with friends on Plaza Indonesia , Kitchenette
first order black coffe double espresso
continuw with caramel machiato, freshingly burst to my brain and with enchanted music played..
just wanna write stuff
oh my... how i miss this moment of relaxing coffee and music and chit chat....
thank god is smoking area
coz now so many places that is strictly no smoking, inside the mall..
whats the point of making a coffee places without smoking area seriously... whats is their problem,, as i know...80% of people love coffe and cigarette..
and soo oooon.. bla bllaa bla......

work its a bit hectic now, crazzylyy, planning to do another program fitness
so manyy choices i had to pick, hummmm.......

oh and member love my class, thank god , is almost full on every classes , so its pretty awesome
have i ever feel bored, yaaah, if im always use the same song all the time......
that is why im always changed the song, on every week, soo learning every week, ....

Bonita & The Hus Band

Found a very very talented Musician from Indonesia
That Is
Bonita & The HusbanD


Bonita: vokal
Petrus Briyanto Adi: gitar, vokal
Bharata Eli Gulo: perkusi, vokal
Jimmy Tobing: saksofon

such amazing voice that could reach My heart, magicly Enchanted, if u guys know "Flawrence & The Machine", tHis Bonita is the Indo version of them..

, the first time i watch this band was last thursday life from Kemang, as i sit, the voice coming from the stage combine with all this traditional and modern instrument , straight touchly my heart .....

one of the new single they had ari, live and accoustic
the story her exboyfriend..

Monday, August 23, 2010

finally Im hereee..

yes this the time 4 me,
finally i got class of my own, even though its only for a cover, i can handle it now
, i had been better people that i had thx for:
- my ALLAH SWT of course, without ur believe i wouldnt believe im here.
- my dad
- my Mom
Friends and Mentor at Gold Gym
- Nicky
- Aji
- Wiwied
- Aldi Jacob
- Anggie
- and specially everyone from Moi gold gym indonesia
- and also MR. everton Torres, if u never been becoming our new head director manager, i wouldnt had been called, soo , thank u soo much

love u guys....
i promise i wouldnt let u down
next need to save money, to buy the special shoe, microphone, new clothes, new rpm pants
oh god.. so many,,,,
awesomeee

Friday, June 11, 2010

First of....My spiritual Journey eva




what a beautiful sunday that was.big blue sky with white cloud surround it, mountain surround it, flowers around it, colours, so beautiful that i was cried to heart, that was nothing i could describe it more.walking through d grass, listening to slow music which make more perfect than eva.
the journey started when i woke up and see outside my window with a big blue sky,there's mountains, hills and hills before it , and everything's green on d ground.we were getting ready we took a shower and some breakfast. then we go.as we walk inside the garden , big big super big garden with lots and lots flowers , first stop we headed to this glass house, an the colours of the flowers shining bright through my eyes , we walk slowly and slowly to enjoy of what we see.as we head outside, we found the SPOT just under d BIG tree and flowers around it, we lay down, drink, and put another music on and look at the sky, where i could see cloud that moving round and round.
first i feel sick want throw up , my head is spinning like crazy, feeling paranoid that i could fly and falling to the sky......, and then Hippola was on, as the music comes to my ear, my head, then i feel it through whole my body.... peacefully...the sick has starting to disappear, paranoid becomes something beautiful.
the power of Positivenes is come... like i was pull back on d ground.. and when i open my eyed i see an angel dancing around the sky freely, flowers on my side is flowing through d sky and surround that angel,tears started falling from eyes. as i told my friends they were smiling and told they saw the same thing, it was amazing...
an hour later we decided to walk again, in this Big garden of maze, we walk with music on, we lough, we joke. but then we got lost inside it b ... thx god, we found our way out. so much fun ...
i boorowed some guitar pretending i could play it with the same song that i hear

as we walk we again we found another spot to sit,and we talk what comes on their mind to let it out everything and i did that too.. the crazy things everybody found their solutions straight a head, an we got to write it down, and keep it..


as we walk again i have found my way, through this life, what kind of person i could become,
what i found is there r still some beautifullness in this world, and to stay on my positiveness, and if i want to be happy, i should be more Honest to myself, be what we are but caring for others and i want to make PEOPLE around me happy,honest, tru about them self, i wanna be a person that somebody could lean on, i could help people around me , i wanna be that person, i am gonna be that person.

we done our spiritual journey in this big flower garden
next year it will be on the beach..
looking forward to it. thank to god, that i still live until now and see d big picture to live in this world