whaaat??

since u were back u look all sad!
u skinnier, ur gloomy,and confuse!
i wanna ask.... why?.........
but he was there! right next to you, like everything just look fine!

then rumours spread that u break up with him, so i open ur facebook to see and read
ur status, to make sure its true!......and it is.im sad, coz i feel like i know u and him being together like since 4ever.. wherever he is u were always there... and suport him everything!.. sooo , i msg u on fb, so u'l be okay! "which i regret!!"

the next day i saw u, still with the gloomy face!!.., i was embarassed so badly then i'l try to avoid u coz he was there!,i know that u were trying to talk to me but i was too scared and trying make myself busy with others.

after all that u ask to go dinner together with others and a few second later ur boyfriend ask too , can't say no so i gotta go!
and damn!! i sit right next to you ...everyone keep loughing , talking and loughing.....but u.. u just sitting there quietly and not mendling with others..so i said "hello"...then u smiled a bit but it feels like the room light become bright as the SUn! omg ini NAMANYA GUE lebai, but this is for real.... we talked a bit.

After the meal.......
u msg me on mobile so no one coulnd't know!it say that u need a friend then
u ask me to stay over and,.......... i said okay i'l love too ,even though we were never friends before,

After ur boyfriends left u cal me ...
just 3 meters from ur house suddenly im trembling, shaking.
whaaaa...whaat the hell . why am i so nervous, i dont know.
"keep telling myself that im here just to listen"
as u open door, u told me that u were tired so lets go to bed straight'
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"u live byserlf??" "yeahh. totally" u said.

uh...ummm.....okay.
as we in bed in your bed , i ask u to tell me everything ....then u cried...................................
as i sweep your back gently, i wanna hug u so badly, but i was too scared, u were there half naked an i didnt do anything... OMG SOOO stupiid bud, sooooo stupiiid!!!!!!!!!!!!
scared being rejected, scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared!
after 3 hours.. couldnt sleep


u were there rolling so u could look at me, like 4ever i couldn't sleep at all, coz my hearts pumping like machine on roll! and all i did just hug and kiss! what can i do... im not ready! still not!

thank god i was free that day and ur boyfriend was away too, so we hang out meeting up ur friends ..which is awesome BTw!
i could see the light on ur face star shining again, finally u eat, finally u lough, then there goes ur bitchy itchy attitude come out.
the day goes so well and good!
even though u were sleeping through whole movie, im glad to see it!

after we gone to bed, i let u sleep again coz i know ur tired, but i couldnt..cozz this will be the last night we gona spend together since he 's coming back later on, so im just there right next to u hugging u watching u sleep . so beautiful.

aaghh! till today i cant stop thinking about it, i wanna c u so bad!
gilaaaaa
padahal gw sidang 3 hari lagi, semuanya gak masuuuuukkk!
all i can see is ur face , oh god, what the hell is this, i hate it i hate it! FU** THIS!!
NEED TO CONCENTRATE!!!