Coffeeeee .... music & cigarette.....

its been such a long time i havent
write anything here..
just got the moment........

lunch with friends on Plaza Indonesia , Kitchenette
first order black coffe double espresso
continuw with caramel machiato, freshingly burst to my brain and with enchanted music played..
just wanna write stuff
oh my... how i miss this moment of relaxing coffee and music and chit chat....
thank god is smoking area
coz now so many places that is strictly no smoking, inside the mall..
whats the point of making a coffee places without smoking area seriously... whats is their problem,, as i know...80% of people love coffe and cigarette..
and soo oooon.. bla bllaa bla......

work its a bit hectic now, crazzylyy, planning to do another program fitness
so manyy choices i had to pick, hummmm.......

oh and member love my class, thank god , is almost full on every classes , so its pretty awesome
have i ever feel bored, yaaah, if im always use the same song all the time......
that is why im always changed the song, on every week, soo learning every week, ....

Bonita & The Hus Band

Found a very very talented Musician from Indonesia
That Is
Bonita & The HusbanD


Bonita: vokal
Petrus Briyanto Adi: gitar, vokal
Bharata Eli Gulo: perkusi, vokal
Jimmy Tobing: saksofon

such amazing voice that could reach My heart, magicly Enchanted, if u guys know "Flawrence & The Machine", tHis Bonita is the Indo version of them..

, the first time i watch this band was last thursday life from Kemang, as i sit, the voice coming from the stage combine with all this traditional and modern instrument , straight touchly my heart .....

one of the new single they had ari, live and accoustic
the story her exboyfriend..

finally Im hereee..

yes this the time 4 me,
finally i got class of my own, even though its only for a cover, i can handle it now
, i had been better people that i had thx for:
- my ALLAH SWT of course, without ur believe i wouldnt believe im here.
- my dad
- my Mom
Friends and Mentor at Gold Gym
- Nicky
- Aji
- Wiwied
- Aldi Jacob
- Anggie
- and specially everyone from Moi gold gym indonesia
- and also MR. everton Torres, if u never been becoming our new head director manager, i wouldnt had been called, soo , thank u soo much

love u guys....
i promise i wouldnt let u down
next need to save money, to buy the special shoe, microphone, new clothes, new rpm pants
oh god.. so many,,,,
awesomeee

First of....My spiritual Journey eva

what a beautiful sunday that was.big blue sky with white cloud surround it, mountain surround it, flowers around it, colours, so beautiful that i was cried to heart, that was nothing i could describe it more.walking through d grass, listening to slow music which make more perfect than eva.
the journey started when i woke up and see outside my window with a big blue sky,there's mountains, hills and hills before it , and everything's green on d ground.we were getting ready we took a shower and some breakfast. then we go.as we walk inside the garden , big big super big garden with lots and lots flowers , first stop we headed to this glass house, an the colours of the flowers shining bright through my eyes , we walk slowly and slowly to enjoy of what we see.as we head outside, we found the SPOT just under d BIG tree and flowers around it, we lay down, drink, and put another music on and look at the sky, where i could see cloud that moving round and round.
first i feel sick want throw up , my head is spinning like crazy, feeling paranoid that i could fly and falling to the sky......, and then Hippola was on, as the music comes to my ear, my head, then i feel it through whole my body.... peacefully...the sick has starting to disappear, paranoid becomes something beautiful.
the power of Positivenes is come... like i was pull back on d ground.. and when i open my eyed i see an angel dancing around the sky freely, flowers on my side is flowing through d sky and surround that angel,tears started falling from eyes. as i told my friends they were smiling and told they saw the same thing, it was amazing...
an hour later we decided to walk again, in this Big garden of maze, we walk with music on, we lough, we joke. but then we got lost inside it b ... thx god, we found our way out. so much fun ...
i boorowed some guitar pretending i could play it with the same song that i hear

as we walk we again we found another spot to sit,and we talk what comes on their mind to let it out everything and i did that too.. the crazy things everybody found their solutions straight a head, an we got to write it down, and keep it..


as we walk again i have found my way, through this life, what kind of person i could become,
what i found is there r still some beautifullness in this world, and to stay on my positiveness, and if i want to be happy, i should be more Honest to myself, be what we are but caring for others and i want to make PEOPLE around me happy,honest, tru about them self, i wanna be a person that somebody could lean on, i could help people around me , i wanna be that person, i am gonna be that person.

we done our spiritual journey in this big flower garden
next year it will be on the beach..
looking forward to it. thank to god, that i still live until now and see d big picture to live in this world

loving this sigur ros

u guys r soooo freaakin roooocckk





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loving this sigur ros

u guys r soooo freaakin roooocckk





kk

quaterly

dammit! i miss it, shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!

oh crap, i gotta wait 4 another, 5 months now, craaaaaap!

tv shows is growing up

as we all know
such entertainment like tv show and all, some is like a life that is imposible to have, and overall such a bullshit crap, drama drama and drama even i cant stand it sometimes.
but.
some are changing their consept of their tv show, it more like giving u advice, about everything, how to deal with ur family, how to deal friendshipness, caring about people, love at first sight, life and live, a dream, being used, a jerk, a bitch, an asshole, teacher, and most the truth of ours, feeling, hatred, love, fun, what we r, and what u r. etc etc.

such inspiration r coming to me,
like ugly betty, which talk about achieving ur dream, and also is not easy how to survive it and living in people expectation, and all.
glee
is more like finding the truth about urself, and how to survive in it, in school, in life, they got it all.
Brother & sister , The parenthood
dealing with family is never been easy, with ur kids , ur own parents, brother and sister, but most important family is no.1
Greek
life in campus , is not easy as is seen, is harder, how do u stay in life after school over, friends come and go, choosing between love and friendship

more detail not now, maybe later byee

Dont u bring me down today

1:
freakin workgroup is pailling up to the cealling , an is all on me, others r too busy to do it, other doing this, and other doing that, freakin mad, and when i just started doing it today by my self, and i was on fire really on fire
then one of them, texted me "hi bud, hows our homework?" when i sain do u want to meet up and doing it together, thousand of reason r just there" F*** that, stop giving me this bullshit all care and all that but then u dont give any shit about it.l F*** u all , u just ruin it it got me angry, freakin maaaad!, i can do this by myself, and hopefully i m gonna finish it, im gonna put it all nighter... hopefully!

2:
my own family is all F*** up too today, first my sista, okay she just got home from work and all i ask is borrowing her mobile phone just for 1 minute, and she's like "whaat, i just bought some credit, noo expensive, no way"... fineeeee
then i text my mom, just wondering where is she and all,
and she answered she is in the hospital, so i text back, where? what happen i'll go there right now? then she just said
im okay, im just old and rotten,..bla bla bla.
mOM i dont need that today, im stressed enough already, stop being soo freakin spoiled and the neeed of the attention, i just cant give that today, dont u know u freakin good 4 nothing son, is stressfull enough about anything agghhhhhh

random.....

im so confuse my self with this one!

friends friends friends!
im here all the time
im tired when u said to me "u r so snob bud?"
ur so busy and all, bla bla bla.

first
i am busy and all, so much on my plate right now,
since dad is gone, im trying to keep my family together
coz sometimes they just lose it sometimes, specially my mom
i had to be with her all the time, well not really...but at least im there

second
i found out ur hooking up with my friend H, can't believe u did that, he got a wife and kids what the hell r u doing , seriously! u r insane,
i know u breaking up with A coz A got together with J an it hurt u badly and u need somebody else to be with u all the time , im sorry that i cant be with u all the time then u throw me away like garbage, but im glad, being with u is like a prisoner coz A & J also my friends i cant hang out with them and with others or i had a little time 4 my family......poor H " it's ur new victim but.... well.. H is also very Fake person so u deserve together.

also ur anger to A & J dont take it out only at J or giving the face or mouth, seriously how H feels! u already have somebody else no need that revenge already! u all are important to me,but i u r gonna do something to J, im gonna protect J from u all i can if u are , not because i like J coz J is my friend and im gonna protect all my friends, u freak!

three
yes im teaching class now, if u dont like seeing me up there go F*** urself , go talk with people said whatever u like, coz i know its not true an there r still friends who believe me that i can do this.. an... yeap im good!

On my way UP!!

things are really good this months!
Finally!!!
i had finished my last UNI project an i Pass, all i need to do is finish this semester an IM DONE for UNi for good!!
whooofff@@
then i had passed my training as an Instructor RPM class for the gym, after 7 years doing it after being fat, then thin, fat again, then thin again, over over and over, im gonna earn money from doing what i love and soo passion about it, work Hard really payed off, ! hehe

then im being a shadow for at least 3 weeks, then team coach for 2 weeks then i gonna have my own class pretty soon! hehehe!
cant wait, although i still hav to memorize all the songs and the choreography for at least 20 songs, i only had memorize 5 of it, so 15 more songs to go! yippiee!

an the people who im training with u r amaziing, for the past 2 days we worked really hard together as a team, really miss u people hope we can meet again soon! really2 miss u,




i have to thank u all the people
who supported me all this, i just cant thank u enough, so much people who being in this cause. love u and thank u so much for all ur greatness!

some people some friends

for some reasons
i've been supporting people around me so much, i encourage them, i motivate them, and i push them to the limit, some success. and once their reach their target an change their life to this whole new world, i was happy, and proud to them to the max....

but as the time goes past little by little.. they forgot who was i.
i was just a friendor someone who past by, and gave them support, nothing more.

then it was a snap!! for me, they change , why havent i, where am i going..
is it because the unstable mind of me, or is it..
i dont know
i dont know

u are

so weak! on soo many ways!

phase 1:
after the day u left
class never been the same, ur the only one who would shouted back whenever i shouted.
i didnt tell my feeling to you on ur last day there.
i mean whats the point! u gonna go anyway for how long i dont know!
maybe i should've tell u
then we could spend time alone .
but then...........
i dont know its been 3 days only and i miss u so bad, badly enough that i got no energy on everthing on anything.
even though i have few more days to go on my last big presentation on UNI!
seems didnt care!
but i do care, i really do, but u are moreee!

phase 2:
u make me happy then u hurt me then u make my whole word beutiful again!
oh im such a weak guy, i just cant say no to you!
last night u came to me again, that ur feeling down need someone to talk.. who else u can talk to, other than me! of course i say yes i'l accompany u ,
then we chat have a beer, another beer and another beer and another! till u feel a lot better... and better.
then for the first time u grab my head.......... then kiss it! which u never done it before ever.

i want to grab ur hand, but i didnt dare to do it. im scared to go there again, coz u hurt and i dont want go complicated again! im done with that!
so i just sit there trying not looking at u, and everything in u!
shut up and smile!
if u didnt have someone else i would to give it back to you!
but u seems so attached to that person, that i dont want to hurt.

and if we did ended up together again,
life will be so hard to me and u! so im chicken out....
oh well i dont know what would happen tomorow, we'l have to see
agaiiinn!! hehehehe

letter 2

i miss u dad!
life is so up an down since u away
im lost,
dealing with death, is hard than it looks!

Chris Brown is back! with new awesome hit single

Chris Brown is back

YES people he’s back! I cant believe he is dare to show his face back again to the world after what he done to Rihanna our umbrella girl ………………………………………………………………… …………………… ……………… ………………………………………………………………… …… ……….

But if u look at the big picture over here, People deserve to have a second chance or maybe third and that’s the maximum I give for me.

Take a look at ourselves at the moment we also make mistake sometime, and not many people or friends forgive easily , of course we feel hurt, guilty, alone, and become crazy sometimes. And for that we just have to live with it. Well honey is your fault, but if we really truly madly deeply ( ehehehehe ) want to change lets prove it and not only by words but by doing it.

All I want to say is , lets make changes to ourself and others, let people think whatever they want as long as we not giving up and fall down below!

Here it is Chris Brown

With new hit single "Crawl" from the album Graffiti

im coming!

yes ur boyfriend is away!
im coming over now!
hopefully im gonna hav it today!
hehehehehe!!

whaaat??

since u were back u look all sad!
u skinnier, ur gloomy,and confuse!
i wanna ask.... why?.........
but he was there! right next to you, like everything just look fine!

then rumours spread that u break up with him, so i open ur facebook to see and read
ur status, to make sure its true!......and it is.im sad, coz i feel like i know u and him being together like since 4ever.. wherever he is u were always there... and suport him everything!.. sooo , i msg u on fb, so u'l be okay! "which i regret!!"

the next day i saw u, still with the gloomy face!!.., i was embarassed so badly then i'l try to avoid u coz he was there!,i know that u were trying to talk to me but i was too scared and trying make myself busy with others.

after all that u ask to go dinner together with others and a few second later ur boyfriend ask too , can't say no so i gotta go!
and damn!! i sit right next to you ...everyone keep loughing , talking and loughing.....but u.. u just sitting there quietly and not mendling with others..so i said "hello"...then u smiled a bit but it feels like the room light become bright as the SUn! omg ini NAMANYA GUE lebai, but this is for real.... we talked a bit.

After the meal.......
u msg me on mobile so no one coulnd't know!it say that u need a friend then
u ask me to stay over and,.......... i said okay i'l love too ,even though we were never friends before,

After ur boyfriends left u cal me ...
just 3 meters from ur house suddenly im trembling, shaking.
whaaaa...whaat the hell . why am i so nervous, i dont know.
"keep telling myself that im here just to listen"
as u open door, u told me that u were tired so lets go to bed straight'
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"u live byserlf??" "yeahh. totally" u said.

uh...ummm.....okay.
as we in bed in your bed , i ask u to tell me everything ....then u cried...................................
as i sweep your back gently, i wanna hug u so badly, but i was too scared, u were there half naked an i didnt do anything... OMG SOOO stupiid bud, sooooo stupiiid!!!!!!!!!!!!
scared being rejected, scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared!
after 3 hours.. couldnt sleep


u were there rolling so u could look at me, like 4ever i couldn't sleep at all, coz my hearts pumping like machine on roll! and all i did just hug and kiss! what can i do... im not ready! still not!

thank god i was free that day and ur boyfriend was away too, so we hang out meeting up ur friends ..which is awesome BTw!
i could see the light on ur face star shining again, finally u eat, finally u lough, then there goes ur bitchy itchy attitude come out.
the day goes so well and good!
even though u were sleeping through whole movie, im glad to see it!

after we gone to bed, i let u sleep again coz i know ur tired, but i couldnt..cozz this will be the last night we gona spend together since he 's coming back later on, so im just there right next to u hugging u watching u sleep . so beautiful.

aaghh! till today i cant stop thinking about it, i wanna c u so bad!
gilaaaaa
padahal gw sidang 3 hari lagi, semuanya gak masuuuuukkk!
all i can see is ur face , oh god, what the hell is this, i hate it i hate it! FU** THIS!!
NEED TO CONCENTRATE!!!

Amazing, video, loving it!

im such a fool BUT Im happy. soo FU** it lah!!

yes im in relation ship right now

even though die uda engage with somebody else,
selama dia butuh gw, im gonna be there 4 sure!

love love... aaghhhh F*CK this!