First of....My spiritual Journey eva

what a beautiful sunday that was.big blue sky with white cloud surround it, mountain surround it, flowers around it, colours, so beautiful that i was cried to heart, that was nothing i could describe it more.walking through d grass, listening to slow music which make more perfect than eva.
the journey started when i woke up and see outside my window with a big blue sky,there's mountains, hills and hills before it , and everything's green on d ground.we were getting ready we took a shower and some breakfast. then we go.as we walk inside the garden , big big super big garden with lots and lots flowers , first stop we headed to this glass house, an the colours of the flowers shining bright through my eyes , we walk slowly and slowly to enjoy of what we see.as we head outside, we found the SPOT just under d BIG tree and flowers around it, we lay down, drink, and put another music on and look at the sky, where i could see cloud that moving round and round.
first i feel sick want throw up , my head is spinning like crazy, feeling paranoid that i could fly and falling to the sky......, and then Hippola was on, as the music comes to my ear, my head, then i feel it through whole my body.... peacefully...the sick has starting to disappear, paranoid becomes something beautiful.
the power of Positivenes is come... like i was pull back on d ground.. and when i open my eyed i see an angel dancing around the sky freely, flowers on my side is flowing through d sky and surround that angel,tears started falling from eyes. as i told my friends they were smiling and told they saw the same thing, it was amazing...
an hour later we decided to walk again, in this Big garden of maze, we walk with music on, we lough, we joke. but then we got lost inside it b ... thx god, we found our way out. so much fun ...
i boorowed some guitar pretending i could play it with the same song that i hear

as we walk we again we found another spot to sit,and we talk what comes on their mind to let it out everything and i did that too.. the crazy things everybody found their solutions straight a head, an we got to write it down, and keep it..


as we walk again i have found my way, through this life, what kind of person i could become,
what i found is there r still some beautifullness in this world, and to stay on my positiveness, and if i want to be happy, i should be more Honest to myself, be what we are but caring for others and i want to make PEOPLE around me happy,honest, tru about them self, i wanna be a person that somebody could lean on, i could help people around me , i wanna be that person, i am gonna be that person.

we done our spiritual journey in this big flower garden
next year it will be on the beach..
looking forward to it. thank to god, that i still live until now and see d big picture to live in this world

loving this sigur ros

u guys r soooo freaakin roooocckk





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loving this sigur ros

u guys r soooo freaakin roooocckk





kk

quaterly

dammit! i miss it, shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!

oh crap, i gotta wait 4 another, 5 months now, craaaaaap!

tv shows is growing up

as we all know
such entertainment like tv show and all, some is like a life that is imposible to have, and overall such a bullshit crap, drama drama and drama even i cant stand it sometimes.
but.
some are changing their consept of their tv show, it more like giving u advice, about everything, how to deal with ur family, how to deal friendshipness, caring about people, love at first sight, life and live, a dream, being used, a jerk, a bitch, an asshole, teacher, and most the truth of ours, feeling, hatred, love, fun, what we r, and what u r. etc etc.

such inspiration r coming to me,
like ugly betty, which talk about achieving ur dream, and also is not easy how to survive it and living in people expectation, and all.
glee
is more like finding the truth about urself, and how to survive in it, in school, in life, they got it all.
Brother & sister , The parenthood
dealing with family is never been easy, with ur kids , ur own parents, brother and sister, but most important family is no.1
Greek
life in campus , is not easy as is seen, is harder, how do u stay in life after school over, friends come and go, choosing between love and friendship

more detail not now, maybe later byee

Dont u bring me down today

1:
freakin workgroup is pailling up to the cealling , an is all on me, others r too busy to do it, other doing this, and other doing that, freakin mad, and when i just started doing it today by my self, and i was on fire really on fire
then one of them, texted me "hi bud, hows our homework?" when i sain do u want to meet up and doing it together, thousand of reason r just there" F*** that, stop giving me this bullshit all care and all that but then u dont give any shit about it.l F*** u all , u just ruin it it got me angry, freakin maaaad!, i can do this by myself, and hopefully i m gonna finish it, im gonna put it all nighter... hopefully!

2:
my own family is all F*** up too today, first my sista, okay she just got home from work and all i ask is borrowing her mobile phone just for 1 minute, and she's like "whaat, i just bought some credit, noo expensive, no way"... fineeeee
then i text my mom, just wondering where is she and all,
and she answered she is in the hospital, so i text back, where? what happen i'll go there right now? then she just said
im okay, im just old and rotten,..bla bla bla.
mOM i dont need that today, im stressed enough already, stop being soo freakin spoiled and the neeed of the attention, i just cant give that today, dont u know u freakin good 4 nothing son, is stressfull enough about anything agghhhhhh

random.....

im so confuse my self with this one!

friends friends friends!
im here all the time
im tired when u said to me "u r so snob bud?"
ur so busy and all, bla bla bla.

first
i am busy and all, so much on my plate right now,
since dad is gone, im trying to keep my family together
coz sometimes they just lose it sometimes, specially my mom
i had to be with her all the time, well not really...but at least im there

second
i found out ur hooking up with my friend H, can't believe u did that, he got a wife and kids what the hell r u doing , seriously! u r insane,
i know u breaking up with A coz A got together with J an it hurt u badly and u need somebody else to be with u all the time , im sorry that i cant be with u all the time then u throw me away like garbage, but im glad, being with u is like a prisoner coz A & J also my friends i cant hang out with them and with others or i had a little time 4 my family......poor H " it's ur new victim but.... well.. H is also very Fake person so u deserve together.

also ur anger to A & J dont take it out only at J or giving the face or mouth, seriously how H feels! u already have somebody else no need that revenge already! u all are important to me,but i u r gonna do something to J, im gonna protect J from u all i can if u are , not because i like J coz J is my friend and im gonna protect all my friends, u freak!

three
yes im teaching class now, if u dont like seeing me up there go F*** urself , go talk with people said whatever u like, coz i know its not true an there r still friends who believe me that i can do this.. an... yeap im good!