shallow or whatever u called it

it is true when it called Life

when

people come and go

friends come and go

lovers come and go

family comes and go

everybody comes and go

fun is only 4 a while, lough is only 4 a while, also high smile happy mad angry.

but what stay is URSELF, ....hurt.... d... ache... of getting hurt left behind.

d connection, making a new one d effortm im tired,,,

is being lonely okay? it could be, it could be not

"you only dissapear" why bother

i wish i could just go away anywhere start new , i wanted too soo badlly

Lives even better

Last sunday was the crazziest moment Ever
where all of us RPM instructor gathering together.
having a tution
to preparing our new lounching RPM 51..
and how do get connected to all d members and help them to lose more weight in safety , easy , hard , sweating classes

which this time i got to show off my skiLL
i know i've been improve better but ther's always little bit scary feeling inside
where i was going to perform with all these LeGEndaryys instructor an be able to watch them asweeLL

such tingling feeling inside is bursting out of my body< such amazing feeelings got,
and seeing their smile and scream at me how they follow my instruction while on a speed track "Break My faLL' Tiesto' such an awesome songs, which amaaazingly, wow,
and just by seeing those smile, i felt more confident then ever..
when they clap their hands , i felt alive then ever, is this what it feel to be recognize,

but then i got to thinking, i dont wanna lose the big head of me becoming bigger bigger an arogant, i need to stay calm , as i alweys a little bit emotionary insane and mad.......
i dont wanna be those arrogant, feeling in d top of d world without even looking down or anything around...

at the end of the day
our headt teacher 4 body jamp, msg me to have to perform SH'bam tuition
and she gave me 2 tracks to perform, shit man is crazyy, i never though that i would be doing that sh'bam thing, taking d Training was an ok mistake but just can't undo it, \
all i have to do now is give my best shot next saturday, i got nail it, if these mean i got to open up, and i have more open , more relax, couse Sh'Bam is free and release the inside of u that u never ever opening it, is quite easy but hardon the alligmnet and d feeling of the freeee...
here we go....
my god i should've doing this more often while im STO***..
hehehehehe
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oh god thank u 4 making me this far, i stiLL love u more than ever

blueee...

Where are we now,,...,,u keep hanging me on the top, .,.,.,, I keep telling u how I feel, so u know how I feel , and I know how u feel the same way, is it so Hard 4 to u leaning it on me, relying everything , I'm catching u if u fall, stop being soooo independent, tough, strong, an everything will be just fine, nooo, everything would not go just fine if u hold backz, know u could ,u know that u want it,,,I could've make u happy and u know it,"that's why u around so much, u there all d time" ,, but what is it that made u sooo afraid, damn it I love u so much, that made me wanna scream it to the world,.... Just about d time when I'm starting moving on...last night U come back an again made me feel d love, the moment, the look , the touch,,,,,,, aaaahh craaaaap! Craaaap I'm drowning again and again... I wanna say, I want tell, but I don't want to ... Afraid,, of ruining d moment Chicken lo Bud Chicken Hehehehehe!