whaaat??

since u were back u look all sad!
u skinnier, ur gloomy,and confuse!
i wanna ask.... why?.........
but he was there! right next to you, like everything just look fine!

then rumours spread that u break up with him, so i open ur facebook to see and read
ur status, to make sure its true!......and it is.im sad, coz i feel like i know u and him being together like since 4ever.. wherever he is u were always there... and suport him everything!.. sooo , i msg u on fb, so u'l be okay! "which i regret!!"

the next day i saw u, still with the gloomy face!!.., i was embarassed so badly then i'l try to avoid u coz he was there!,i know that u were trying to talk to me but i was too scared and trying make myself busy with others.

after all that u ask to go dinner together with others and a few second later ur boyfriend ask too , can't say no so i gotta go!
and damn!! i sit right next to you ...everyone keep loughing , talking and loughing.....but u.. u just sitting there quietly and not mendling with others..so i said "hello"...then u smiled a bit but it feels like the room light become bright as the SUn! omg ini NAMANYA GUE lebai, but this is for real.... we talked a bit.

After the meal.......
u msg me on mobile so no one coulnd't know!it say that u need a friend then
u ask me to stay over and,.......... i said okay i'l love too ,even though we were never friends before,

After ur boyfriends left u cal me ...
just 3 meters from ur house suddenly im trembling, shaking.
whaaaa...whaat the hell . why am i so nervous, i dont know.
"keep telling myself that im here just to listen"
as u open door, u told me that u were tired so lets go to bed straight'
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"u live byserlf??" "yeahh. totally" u said.

uh...ummm.....okay.
as we in bed in your bed , i ask u to tell me everything ....then u cried...................................
as i sweep your back gently, i wanna hug u so badly, but i was too scared, u were there half naked an i didnt do anything... OMG SOOO stupiid bud, sooooo stupiiid!!!!!!!!!!!!
scared being rejected, scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared!
after 3 hours.. couldnt sleep


u were there rolling so u could look at me, like 4ever i couldn't sleep at all, coz my hearts pumping like machine on roll! and all i did just hug and kiss! what can i do... im not ready! still not!

thank god i was free that day and ur boyfriend was away too, so we hang out meeting up ur friends ..which is awesome BTw!
i could see the light on ur face star shining again, finally u eat, finally u lough, then there goes ur bitchy itchy attitude come out.
the day goes so well and good!
even though u were sleeping through whole movie, im glad to see it!

after we gone to bed, i let u sleep again coz i know ur tired, but i couldnt..cozz this will be the last night we gona spend together since he 's coming back later on, so im just there right next to u hugging u watching u sleep . so beautiful.

aaghh! till today i cant stop thinking about it, i wanna c u so bad!
gilaaaaa
padahal gw sidang 3 hari lagi, semuanya gak masuuuuukkk!
all i can see is ur face , oh god, what the hell is this, i hate it i hate it! FU** THIS!!
NEED TO CONCENTRATE!!!

Amazing, video, loving it!

im such a fool BUT Im happy. soo FU** it lah!!

yes im in relation ship right now

even though die uda engage with somebody else,
selama dia butuh gw, im gonna be there 4 sure!

love love... aaghhhh F*CK this!

friends with a couple

always being left out
the other is always important.
oh im sick of this, im backing off

YAY!! Clazziquaaii has a new album

as i write about them earlier...
the Amazing band from clazziquai, has a new album "MucHo MUSICA"
and these are their new Single " TeLL YOURSELF !!!!"
such a cool songs; lift up ur Day.
an i found the video which live performance! they dont do this often.

miracle does happen

finally after 5 months driving, without car licence
finally this morning , one of the helper at home, found,
oh ALLAH, thank u so much
thank u , thank u , thank u!!!

my gooodnesss!! now i dont have to be afraid of going home, after midnight!!
just in case there's a check or anythiing!! hehehehehahahahaha
hahahahahahaha!!
oh GOD im so freeakinly happpyyyy!!!

1 Night Melbourne

One day, I went to Melbourne with my whole family and we lived at Spencer street in this really big apartment, after we arrive in the apartment , the only thing in my mind was going out alone and enjoy the beautiful city of Melbourne after I told my family of course.

I found my self at Collin Street beside those big Church where I used to have coffee with Badra and Sasha, and then I found my self at Bourke st looking at this parade, soo amazing, there’s Chinese dragon dancing with fireworks and all that, then I got called from My sis ask me to go back to have some dinner, my mom were cooking and preparing all that.

We sit at the table , and enjoying this festival parade of food, then my dad ” ta, after this can we go to casino and play a bit, yah?” first thing in my head, oh shit cmon I’m sooo lazy to do it, “sorry dad I cant tonight, promise we go tomorrow! Okay!!” after a while …

I Went to this Big club with Indri sister, somehow I don’t know why?? and freakily it looks like blowfish, full of the riches people and dressed up good, thank god I look super awesome, after a while I met this guy, he was Asian …….

then he Introduce himself,” Hi how are ya” he was wearing this black Shirts with a black shiny jacket, black pants and shiny Black shoes, he was holding this Glass of Red wine , and he also didn’t told me his name , “ ur not drinking” I just node then “ I do, I just couldn’t afford one, thanks for the offer though” , “ no no, wait” then he called one of the waiter to ask the waiter to get us something, then we move to a bar side and having a bottle of wine just 4 the both of us.

we were chatting bla bla bla until I was a drunk , “ shit. This stuff is heavy, thank god I could reach home fast”.. he just smiled “ good on ya.. "...im sooo enjoying this moment...

then my friend came “Budi. Where the hell.. have u been, I was looking 4 u like crazy..lets go home its 4am already”, ,”What!! R u serius, ok2 lets go, wait 4 me at the lobby yah!” as I was saying goodbye to this guy.. he then grab my hand..and.

“ u can’t just leave like that, wait!” then he called a waiter ask for a bill , wait do i have to pay it too, shiit…… …, I though he was going to pay it for me, he was the one who offered it, oh well another jack ass I dont care with this shiit.. when I check my wallet there was $ 150 in it, so I’ll take it out put it on the table, then give it to him” sorry I only have this much…he was looking at me angrily, take my wallet and just put my money back on it..

After the bill come , he looked shocked .. when I was taking a peek on it it was $4400 aus, What the f*ck, we only had 1 bottle of wine and 2 beer, of course ,…. then he started complain with the manager ,…. ”what’s up bud !” it was Indri, after I told the story to her, she straight away company him and help coz she looks like she own the place….after she took it the bill and take a look on it, she moved to this sofa under the stairway…then I saw this photographer take a picture over here and there, then he moved down from the stair and look at Indri, as she standing up with the Bill on her hand ….somethings different about her, she taller and skinnier, Wait THAT Is pudji ……………

oh… My ..God.. what the Fu*k happened……then everything’s started to go around and round,,,,,and become blank ….when im trying to open my eyes again,.. I found my self on my bed woking up………THANK god it was a dream…..waiittt… SH***T it was a dreaaaaaam…………. Daamn!!