quaterly

dammit! i miss it, shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!

oh crap, i gotta wait 4 another, 5 months now, craaaaaap!

tv shows is growing up

as we all know
such entertainment like tv show and all, some is like a life that is imposible to have, and overall such a bullshit crap, drama drama and drama even i cant stand it sometimes.
but.
some are changing their consept of their tv show, it more like giving u advice, about everything, how to deal with ur family, how to deal friendshipness, caring about people, love at first sight, life and live, a dream, being used, a jerk, a bitch, an asshole, teacher, and most the truth of ours, feeling, hatred, love, fun, what we r, and what u r. etc etc.

such inspiration r coming to me,
like ugly betty, which talk about achieving ur dream, and also is not easy how to survive it and living in people expectation, and all.
glee
is more like finding the truth about urself, and how to survive in it, in school, in life, they got it all.
Brother & sister , The parenthood
dealing with family is never been easy, with ur kids , ur own parents, brother and sister, but most important family is no.1
Greek
life in campus , is not easy as is seen, is harder, how do u stay in life after school over, friends come and go, choosing between love and friendship

more detail not now, maybe later byee

Dont u bring me down today

1:
freakin workgroup is pailling up to the cealling , an is all on me, others r too busy to do it, other doing this, and other doing that, freakin mad, and when i just started doing it today by my self, and i was on fire really on fire
then one of them, texted me "hi bud, hows our homework?" when i sain do u want to meet up and doing it together, thousand of reason r just there" F*** that, stop giving me this bullshit all care and all that but then u dont give any shit about it.l F*** u all , u just ruin it it got me angry, freakin maaaad!, i can do this by myself, and hopefully i m gonna finish it, im gonna put it all nighter... hopefully!

2:
my own family is all F*** up too today, first my sista, okay she just got home from work and all i ask is borrowing her mobile phone just for 1 minute, and she's like "whaat, i just bought some credit, noo expensive, no way"... fineeeee
then i text my mom, just wondering where is she and all,
and she answered she is in the hospital, so i text back, where? what happen i'll go there right now? then she just said
im okay, im just old and rotten,..bla bla bla.
mOM i dont need that today, im stressed enough already, stop being soo freakin spoiled and the neeed of the attention, i just cant give that today, dont u know u freakin good 4 nothing son, is stressfull enough about anything agghhhhhh

random.....

im so confuse my self with this one!

friends friends friends!
im here all the time
im tired when u said to me "u r so snob bud?"
ur so busy and all, bla bla bla.

first
i am busy and all, so much on my plate right now,
since dad is gone, im trying to keep my family together
coz sometimes they just lose it sometimes, specially my mom
i had to be with her all the time, well not really...but at least im there

second
i found out ur hooking up with my friend H, can't believe u did that, he got a wife and kids what the hell r u doing , seriously! u r insane,
i know u breaking up with A coz A got together with J an it hurt u badly and u need somebody else to be with u all the time , im sorry that i cant be with u all the time then u throw me away like garbage, but im glad, being with u is like a prisoner coz A & J also my friends i cant hang out with them and with others or i had a little time 4 my family......poor H " it's ur new victim but.... well.. H is also very Fake person so u deserve together.

also ur anger to A & J dont take it out only at J or giving the face or mouth, seriously how H feels! u already have somebody else no need that revenge already! u all are important to me,but i u r gonna do something to J, im gonna protect J from u all i can if u are , not because i like J coz J is my friend and im gonna protect all my friends, u freak!

three
yes im teaching class now, if u dont like seeing me up there go F*** urself , go talk with people said whatever u like, coz i know its not true an there r still friends who believe me that i can do this.. an... yeap im good!

On my way UP!!

things are really good this months!
Finally!!!
i had finished my last UNI project an i Pass, all i need to do is finish this semester an IM DONE for UNi for good!!
whooofff@@
then i had passed my training as an Instructor RPM class for the gym, after 7 years doing it after being fat, then thin, fat again, then thin again, over over and over, im gonna earn money from doing what i love and soo passion about it, work Hard really payed off, ! hehe

then im being a shadow for at least 3 weeks, then team coach for 2 weeks then i gonna have my own class pretty soon! hehehe!
cant wait, although i still hav to memorize all the songs and the choreography for at least 20 songs, i only had memorize 5 of it, so 15 more songs to go! yippiee!

an the people who im training with u r amaziing, for the past 2 days we worked really hard together as a team, really miss u people hope we can meet again soon! really2 miss u,




i have to thank u all the people
who supported me all this, i just cant thank u enough, so much people who being in this cause. love u and thank u so much for all ur greatness!

some people some friends

for some reasons
i've been supporting people around me so much, i encourage them, i motivate them, and i push them to the limit, some success. and once their reach their target an change their life to this whole new world, i was happy, and proud to them to the max....

but as the time goes past little by little.. they forgot who was i.
i was just a friendor someone who past by, and gave them support, nothing more.

then it was a snap!! for me, they change , why havent i, where am i going..
is it because the unstable mind of me, or is it..
i dont know
i dont know

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